One Rebel Revolution

Random Quotes

2010-01-04T21:31:00.003+08:00

"Don’t compete with the best for you can never be better than the best.
Don’t compete with the worst for you’re compromising your capabilities.
Don’t compete.

Just do according to your best ability and everything will work out fine"

-CLEO's Next Top Blogger contestant Grace

Think I'm shallow or should spend my time on better place (like my soon-to-be overdue homework) but I so totally agree with her.

2010 scares the crap outta me. Seriously this year I'm gonna turn 16 & I have yet to accomplish anything. At least, not anything that I can go like, "HEY I DID THIS THING BE VERY PROUD OF ME WORLD WIDE PEOPLE"

Nope, not even close.

But now I'm so damn afraid. Thankyou to all those who are showing concern and willing to help I appreciate it alot. Rlly :D I cant tell y'all how damn much I love you with my limited vocabulary but yeah please feel my sincerity :D

With that I'll now close my blog lol probably come back to it after EOYs. Will be a no-lifer this year. At least, I hope so. Probably lock my laptop to collect layers of dust in my cupboard anyway.

Peace & love, people. Take care <3

Edited: www.fighterjet.wordpress.com

IT'S 2010

2010-01-01T21:43:00.002+08:00

IT'S 2010 LALALA ok just bloghopped over from Angshuang's LJ so yup should really be reflecting. But before I do that I'll have to do what brought me over first. Which is...

I cant rmb now .___. (it's 9: 35pm(

Oh I rmb now (9:40pm, was Fbing) I wanted to jot down a list of questions here that I'll never be able to answer in my entire life (since it's the new year yknw) [dont gimme that look it makes perfect sense]

Q1: I'll never be able to understand why Santa Claus failed to gimme my pink cow again .__. Ok, maybe I didnt get it last year because I was a bad kid (like slacking before EOYs, piercing without permission.... etc) BUT I AM A GOOD KID THIS YEAR. Really.

Santa can read this I know because I emailed him regarding my pink cow.

Q2: I'll grow to a hundred never knowing why Wen Ning & Lawyer are my best friends. I mean I can understand the rest I've got something in common with them but this two... ZERO. Still, thankyou to the both of you hahaha y'all were always there to hear me repeat my never ending crap :D

Q3: I'll never be able to understand why I need to learn Maths & Chemistry .__.

Ok so far it's just these 3 questions LALALA~

(edited)

Q4: I'll be an old lady & never would understand how I made it to drama.

PRIZE PRESENTATION TIME (ok, not really it's just me saying my thankyous)

In no order whatsoever:

#1: My Beltrix girlies. Yeah sure we grew apart in 2009 but wtv, that's what 2010 is for! BONDING MUAHAHAHA. Ok I have yet to forget y'all so dont forget me ]: thanks for the hellos and hugs when we see each other and the occasional crazy times we had hahaha.

#2: Chervelle & Yiling you two really brighten my day hahaha although sometimes I cant stand your random insanity streaks but yeah I have them too so guess we're quits that way!

#3: Liyee & Rachel hahaha y'all made me pass my year 3 life with so much fun (and fangirling for liyee's case muahaha) so yup. Rachel, must help me with bio this year ok!

#4: My Eds peeps (oh wait I need to go back & add a question) My beloved crazy monkeys, enough said. Let's own 2010's Eds Night muahahah :D

#5: My Eds juniors. Y'all are such cute lil bundles of joys and crazy monkeys in-the-making. This year y'all year 3 liao is da jie jies & gor gor liao (I forgot abt jingyu until later oops) Remember if you bully your senior your juniors will bully you also. And treat people the way you want them to treat you which is if your seniors bully you, you bully the juniors for them :D Ok, just kidding hahaha continue being good kiddies ok!

Random thought: in my opinion, Eds should be renamed Crazy Monkeys Institution.

#6: Van Chan ah~ Ok you're not gonna be reading this but I'm really hoping 2010 will be a happy year for you. Dont be look like such an emo nemo anymore breaks my heart seeing you resemble a fish ]:

#7: Angshuang hahahaha thankyou for listening to my rants and updating me on fangirlism hahaha :D I'm glad we kept our friendship burning hope it last on not just through 2010 but to 2100! :D

Ok that's about it did I miss anyone? That's the problem with listing you're bound to.

MYSTERY

2009-12-30T20:52:00.002+08:00

"We were fine until last night
Why are you avoiding me all of sudden
I worry and worry but I don’t know why"
-[[Mystery]] BEAST

I'm falling into a maze of confusion. It's like a bullet that lodges itself into your every thought and explodes into a million and one question-marks. My heart is involuntarily moving in a different direction. Then another. Then another. It shouldn't be this way. No answers, just a heck lot of walls. Every little thing you do scrambles the puzzle. It's difficult to piece something back together if you keep messing it up yknw?

I'm falling into a maze of confusion. There's no map, no compass. Just your lingering perfume that intoxicates my space. My body will readily suffocate itself in your embrace. Resistance is deemed useless for it just adds on to the pain. Oh, sweet sweet pain. It plays on your tongue like that tuneless melody; like stubborn chocolate after a long swig of water.

I'm falling into a maze of confusion. My eyes sees no goal, no aim, no idea of what exactly is the treasure we are so desperately hunting. Maybe an outlet. Maybe answers. Maybe your call. You're my forbidden fruit locked in Pandora's box luring me to open.

Then you threw about the key.

You're Beautiful

2009-12-02T21:57:00.002+08:00

Okie dohkie kiddies it's December & gawd, it's been quite a while since I've been here. Ohwell life's still as interesting as a whitewashed wall at the moment for me. Maths is so awesome it's taking up most of my time along with my other (untouched&undone) homework hahaha.

Totally hooked on You're Beautiful now (pardon for how lag I took to catch up but hey, better late than never) Still, only at ep 7 now -___- need to sleep early today I kinda twisted my right arm it feels real funny now. Like, in a totally bad way.

Reread Slumdog Millionaire again this week hahaha. Anything to get away from maths.

我连心碎也怕惊动你和他

2009-11-23T23:07:00.002+08:00

Ok not updating my blog because there's nothing in my life worth updating or writing down about. I have such a boring life D:

Well, yesterday wasnt that bad. Spent the day with my cousins. Went ice-skating (at first for me -__-) at KLP, went KTV at Teo Heng then dinner at 9+ after the craze of a day.

Ice-skating wasnt that bad I guess. I didnt end up sore & bruised like my sister but I'll take my bike over it any other day. Heck, even roller blades lol I'm not liking the confined place and the routine of skating in circles. Oh, did I mention that the pros dont do wonders? ]: Ok I'm just being a sucker 'cause I'm really bad at ice-skating but I daresay I wasnt that bad for a first-timer :D

KTV was pretty cool since I havent been to any outlets except Kbox. Teo Heng's acoustics are much better than theirs though & they have this touchscreen thingy for you to choose your songs (as opposed to scrolling like crazy on teeny screen with a remote that looks like it belong in a museum)

All in all, it was a great experience. Other than this major flaw but I have no strength to vent it out here so yeah. Some things just dont change & I hate that. And I hate the way I'm reminded of my i-am-an-asshole-who-would-very-much-like-the-world-to-revolve-around-me attitude.

I've been running around in circles this year. Tried new stuff, kept old stuff. Thought new thoughts, replayed old thoughts. Actions? Just the same old, nothing new. No breakthroughs (positive ones that is). A lot more moments to add to My Hall Of Shame. Basically wasting my life & youth. I'll need something great, something really big to break me outta this box.

Terrible isnt it?

Well meeting Wen Ning this Wed, Shuang & Jamie this Friday so yup looking forward to my lovelies who I havent seen in idkhowlong.

P.S. I miss y'all. Sorry for being such a raey D:

BELATED POST

2009-11-16T22:32:00.003+08:00

Ok should had updated this place eons ago but I am a very lazy girl. That bit shouldnt be any news to you hm?

So anyways, I watched 2012 on Friday with Rachel & Liyee (my Ecstastic cuckoos :D) & it was a really awesome movie. The kind that you totally wont check your watch during the movie kind. I know 'cause I was really shocked by how long it was when I came out and didnt realise that it was THAT long during the movie.

And being a very reflective Dunmanian, I've learnt a lot of things from this single movie :D

TOP TEN LIST OF LESSONS RAEY HAD LEARNT FROM THE MOVIE 2012 (in no order whatsoever):

#1: when the door closes, stand away from the door.

#2: if I want to survive, I need to be VERY VERY rich/smart or have really great genes.

#3: or marry someone I've describe above.

#4: if I were to pick up a 3rd language, it should be Russian.

#5: when in doubt to start engine in case of emergency, simply scream "SHUTUP!" & "engine. start." :D

#6: Never stand too close to the edge. Never.

#7: I really need to learn how swim/fly a plane with multiple engines.

#8: I should not have a dog as a pet.

#9: Never date fat crazydollarionaires.

#10: when a crazy fellow tell you he has a map that would totally save your ass, ask for it immediately instead of going back & get it.

Photos at fighterjet.wordpress :D

Another Sign

2009-11-08T21:36:00.002+08:00

'Struggles make my heart beat.

'Cause I know they make me stronger.

That's why I'll never give up.

That's why I'm not afraid to fail" - Nichkhun.

When I heard him say this in the teaser vid it was like woah.

Talk about a wake-up call.

A Sign.

Ok so it's been a year. A lousy year. A terrible year with lousy todays, dreaded tomorrows and regretted yesterdays. It's been one with more downs than ups.

But hey, like how someone reminded me today, it's over. It's time to move on. Time for change. I've gotta stop being like this. Stop pacing on the same spot; going around in circles. Quit self pity. Start believing. 'Cause there are so many people who had faith in me yet I failed to keep the faith in myself. I let them down (I'm sorry) & it's not just because I failed; it's also because I didnt believe I could.

Thankyou to all those that kept believing in me :] Fine, I'll stop driving y'all crazy with my pessimistic talk. I'll try, really. For you, you and you.

"The fear makes my heart beat.

Every morning, I ask myself a question.

Can I really do this well today?

Do I have what it takes?

Then I say to myself.

I can do this, I can.

Then I feel my heartbeat. T

This is the start."

-Wooyoung.

BANG BANG

2009-11-05T22:27:00.002+08:00

Yknw how previously I came to school in bangs? Ok agreed it was not the best hairstyle ever and it was not the nicest bangs around but hey, it was bangs.

& now that my bangs had morphed and grown into a long messy fringe, everyone is cutting bangs .__.

So this is how it feels like to be too in-touch with fashion... Hmmm I should migrate to Mars or Venus then. I bet the kiddos there dont care about fringes :D

Okie dohkey so had to perform for the y2s juniors as part of their Post-exam activities urgk was kinda dreading it plus I had to miss MY Post Exam activities as well ]: And put up with crap... Ohwell now it's over with luck we'll never have to do Pyrrhic Victory again! My cast still owes me a cast photo! Aw well, I'll kinda miss it, the same way I missed Touched With Fire.

Been really busy and lazy nowadays so hvnt been blogging much (oops).

LALALA report books tmr.

MISS Y'ALL

2009-11-01T20:55:00.002+08:00

Storm clouds are above my head. I feel like The Bowler Hat Guy in Meet The Robinsons. Things just aint looking up but maybe it's because I keep looking at everything through shades. Monotonous reality isnt really healthy for anyone, seriously.

School should be made illegal for someone as temperamental as I am .__.

Ok I'm just moaning hahaha. This week aint gonna be a pretty one, especially with the ongoings of this and that. Plus Prune's bent on getting me please let me live through this week without getting myself expelled ._.

I longer love that thing I loved.

I cant keep the things I want to.

I'm this close to losing all I ever had.

WHOA I'M BACK

2009-10-25T13:05:00.002+08:00

Ok it's the end of the dreaded EOYs =throws confetti= roll on weeks and months of sheer joy before the word 'mugging' comes back into my head. Initially after the last paper, I still had thoughts of "gawd I shouldnt be wasting time now! What subject am I to study now?" And the most glorious thing happened:

I REMEMBERED THERE'S NONE MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

I'm nuttier than usual (btw I realised I might actually be allergic to nuts. Long story.) Anyways, there's gonna be a lot of gaming, computering, videoing, youtubing... And the list goes on; yknw the works. The school had said they would continuing with the usual lessons and all. As much as I know it's for our own good, it's really asking for trouble because no normal kiddo would be paying attention or even bother with something as morbid as homework.

Hmmm but then again, I am studying Dunman High. It never fails to surprise me -__-

#1: We always talk about academics. It will find its way into our conversations no matter what.

Emphasise on "NO MATTER WHAT".

#2: Our y4 seniors prom theme is "Boomz". I have a bunch of empathetic and creative seniors.

#3: Our DM is... one-of-a-kind. You'll never find another more encouraging one in any other school.

Ohyay we're such an exciting bunch of people eh? :D

Photographs of a couple of antics from my Ecstastics + AEP Night @ fighterjet :D

NOTE: I'm still gonna be hanging around Blogger so yup haha :D

BYE WORLD I LOVE YOU.

2009-08-02T16:40:00.002+08:00

Wish me luck. I'll be back.

IT CRASH WK

2009-07-31T21:07:00.000+08:00

EHLO there all you wonderful people that I seriously doubt is reading this blog. Really, I dont blame any of you this blog bores even me -.- Ohwell anyways havent been updating for a couple of days now so here's a quickie on what's been going on in my non-existant life :D

Went to catch Harry Potter & The Half Blood Prince with Regina Hui Hsien Candice and Ck on Monday. Personally found it disappointing because I have very high expectations of the HP series but yeah D: everyone who watched it told me it was bad but I still went anyway hahaha loyal fan. Draco & the Weasley twins just gets more and more awesome LOL. What I didnt like about the entire movie was that it just seemed like a bunch of videos lumped together in a strange distorted way. Very uneven transitions causing the whole story to seem kinda bumpy too. Lucky for me I read the book (and should have stuck with reading it but ohwell...)

And then I locked my laptop up for the rest of the week up to today. I feel so proud of myself I'm such an addict I didnt even think it was possible! But this week's is my IT Crash week. Why? My phone is servicing and the spare one I'm using now looks like it's from a different generation from me. Oh did I mention my music player died a pathetic death too? So I had no music player no 8.1 baby no laptop for a week.

Do you know how much of a torture that was for me?! It was like I was cut off from the world D:

But wtv, here I am back and alive! Will continue to lock my laptop away on the weekdays though it's for my own good =chants=

Bye world I had a boring week. Hope you had a life more interesting than mine! :D

I think this is hilarious

2009-07-26T22:30:00.002+08:00

I think this is worth a post because of some strange bizzare reason I find it freaking hilarious. (maybe it's just me I seem to unnaturally high) Got this off Fb :D

Raey has found her best friends using FriendBot

FriendBot predicted these people are the REAL best friends of Raey:

#1 Jamie Kee - Best friend

#2 Natasha Cheng - The funny one

#3 Low Ching Kai - Drinking buddy

#4 Sierra Wenxin Yeo - The trouble maker

#5 Asril Lee Regina Charmaine - The partier

And it's all Eds peeps hahahaha. Maybe that's why I find it so funny :D

愛我的人和我愛的人

2009-07-25T20:38:00.002+08:00

愛我的人和我愛的人

盼不到我愛的人我知道我願意再等
疼不了愛我的人片刻柔情它騙不了人
我不是無情的人卻將你傷的最深
我不忍我不能別再認真忘了我的人
離不開我愛的人我知道愛需要比價
放不下愛我的人因為瞭解他多麼認真
為什麼最真的心碰不到最好的人
我不問我不能擁在懷中直到它變冷
愛我的人對我癡心不悔
我卻為我愛的人甘心一生傷悲
在乎的人始終不對誰對誰不必虛偽
愛我的人為我付出一切
我卻為我愛的人流淚狂亂心碎
愛與被愛同樣受罪
為什麼不懂拒絕癡情的包圍

Ok it's quite that Sarah Low got to me muahaha. But it got me thinking D:

LITUP SINGAPORE

2009-07-25T19:47:00.011+08:00

Ok I really wanted to post this entire novel about every detail possible about yesterday but time is not on my side I just realised the ton I've to do (it's probably the number gazillion+1 realisation -.-)

Anyways... Litup Singapore was yesterday and Eds had done DHS (and mr ken & our seniors & ourselves :D) alot of prizes. I know Taking Chances (Jamie's play) bagged Best Director and Best something I didnt catch sorry! D: and 2nd place among all the other plays. Moving On grabbed 1st place and Best Actress muahaha. [Sylvia hahaha our wonderful vice-chair]

[edited: I just remembered that I ate nothing but two pieces of bread and cheesfries yesterday .__. And I wasnt even hungry at Macs last night .__.]

It was rlly memorable. Especially for me :D I love my hair thanks to Mr Tan San Peng. I'm sure all the rest of you will love it as much as I do if you saw it in person :D because everyone else did muahaha. It wont turn out good in the photos you'll see on Facebook (and if unfortunate, all over the internet) so yup dont base it on that. Base it on me! :D And everyone else who saw i.e. my eds peeps.

To my awesome Litup cast, sorry I'm being a nag and saying this all over but I really had a lot of fun with all of you throughout the whole journey which was about a month. Not very long but not very short and we really came far to reach yesterday. I think we did beautiful, no? And that's the prize itself riiiiiiiight? :D I really love all of you and we should meet up soon for that dinner we had always planned to have but never did -.- Pgn forever! :D

On a sidenote: thanks to the eds people that screamed: "PV WE LOVE YOU" and special thanks to Prissy for shouting "PGN!" reaaaaaaaally loudly when the lights had already fade out hahaha I could identify her voice :D

And then we moved all the props back to school close to today's early morning hahaha & I still didnt get to take my cast photo! D: And thanks to San Peng & Ck that came to support us hahaha

Yesterday changed me in ways beyond imagination. I guess I kinda grew up too haha. I feel more like a senior. awww i'm old D:

[you can totally skip this part i'm moping abit here. Yknw it was like in y2 I would be sad and all when my team didnt win. But now, somehow, I seriously felt no grief because I was fully basking in the joy that was positively radiating from all the rest of the teams. This is how it should be from the very beginning. Win together, lose together. We had won as a whole, as eds and seeing how all of us just scream our heads off and dont care about how unglam we were. I was really bouncing when Sylvia was annouced best actress and would had done a couple of backflips (my stomach and heart did) when Taking Chances and Moving On won the 2nd and 1st places. It's so wonderful to see all of sharing the same smile and moving to the same beat of happiness :D

guess it was also nice while it lasted. And it was as though nothing happened :D ]

Photos from Litup

2009-07-19T22:51:00.018+08:00

Haha here's a couple of shots I've sieved outta the stack I uploaded onto Facebook. Checkout the vids over there too yeah? :D Btw I apologise for the bad quality of the photographs. It was very dim in The Chamber the lighting was plain bad so yeah haha the better [or brighter] ones were taken backstage :]

This is what took place at Da Chamber many many donkey years ago... We performed in a place with such historical meaning awww...

Old twiddling stuff they used in the past during meetings for the Parliment... 0_0

Vanchan standing next to Ck and pretending to be....

Guess who? :D She was confused to be me because she was wearing my hoodie lol. Mr Ken and Harris both called her Raey.

TWF torches :D

Vanchan looks like such a motherly figure when she's braiding Little Girl's hair haha :D

Presenting to you the man of a thousand faces [and hair.]

Caris & Ck. [btw I have this entire video of the both of them but it didnt achieve what I wanted D: But here and there it's still interesting to watch the reactions of people to the camera though hahaha]

Burke, Hare and Maggie :D Pity I didnt get a frontshot of Hare and her amazing hair done by the awesome magician of fantastic hairdos: Tan Sanpeng! :D

Eds Litup Opening :D

2009-07-19T22:37:00.017+08:00

LOL had a blast ytd with Eds hahahaha. Photos would be up on facebook but will post a couple here ltr when I'm done with homework .__.

Arrived in school to move props lalala fast-forward over blocking & people tempting us with pizza to get us to work faster =ahem= and fast-forward over cheering that we finished blocking [like finally] and tada! Here we are changing into costumes. And speaking of changing into costumes, Ck witnessed something he shouldnt have. Thus resulting him into blushing real red like some tomato hahaha :D Poor Ck! :D [he emo-ed throughout dinner with his banana shirt over his head haha]

But most of us forget that afterwards because of another equally retarded 'scandal' which left us laughing from The Arts House to the MRT station. [or maybe longer, we just laughed really hard. Like Natasha almost fell off the staircase railing she was holding on for support because she was laughing too hard. Or Siang that laughed until he had a headache LOL.]

I cant wait for the DVD they are gonna send us :D
All in all, our [most likely last] TWF perf was an absolute success :] But the thing I've realised is that every perf we had, it just goes by too fast, too soon. And at the end of it all when we are taking the curtain call I just cant believe it's over just like that. Why? We find it bloody annoying to go through the same thing over and over during rehearsals when we cant sit and have to stand ramrod straight when required or some weird position that's uncomfortable half the time but for me (even though I feel & have experienced all of the above) I dont mind rewinding the actual performance and redoing it again. Not that it wasnt great [it was gawddamn awesome] but I just love all the energy we have, the breathing we shared and how we functioned together as one. Why isit only so in that mere 20minutes? What about the other times? ]:

Twf is something I can never ever forget in my entire life even if I had a concussion on my head and went into coma :D

After the perf we went to catch some of the poetry reading done by some outside guest and this one lady stood right out from the rest [she praised us muahahaha] and the poems she wrote were really... wow. [my vocab is becoming as limited as Siang's .__.] I cant really quote the lines I like because I've a one heck of a lousy memory but this one line stood right out:

" was in love with the guy that taught me math & history but he was dancing with the girl that had glasses too big for head"

I bet she listens to Taylor Swift hahaha :D

She shared one regarding her brother and another one on her sister and both moved me in strange ways. #1: Miracles can happen we just gotta keep believing. #2: dont be selfish LOL.

After we snuck out of The Chamber to the buffet table I think I was punch-drunk :x But I think it's shocking how my fellow Eds mates can be such scavengers .__. The Singaporean attitude is so scary I think I was shocked stiff [hmmm or maybe I was really punch-drunk...]

Now for a short lil' science lesson for my beloved juniors (this is really the truth you can go check :D)
#1: Tuna is actually dolphin's vomit :D Not buffloes' testicles as Siang told you .__.
#2: gummy worms are NOT made from real worms. But they are made from the squishy insides of insects to achieve the gooey effect :D Why do you think gummy worms kinda glow? They took the insides of fireflies! :D
#3: you know the chicken you think it's called drumsticks? it's actually a gooselet, the young of a goose that had yet to take up its full form :]

Yup will edit this post later when I remember more. Bye world!

[edited] Yeah as I bloghopped around not many people updated about yesterday yet awww... And I havent got around to uploading the photos I think have to wait until tmr le tuition until late tonight .___. [should be made illegal] Anyways it just occured to me [or more like, I just re-remembered] that yesterday's perf was our last one with the y4s... .__. Or maybe just Ck and Vanchan since Sher, Joanna and Sharon didnt turn up...

I dont think drama would ever be the same without the y4s haha. Shermaine going around asking for torches [I personally felt her absense ytd vry strongly because we forgot to bring the torches to The Chamber] and Joanna with her sudden outbursts of Britney Spears hahahah. I'm not vry close to Sharon so yeah a pity for me I guess. Vanchan had been awesome [my idol hahahaha] and I sincerely wish she'll be happy. I dont think she considers me to be very close to her but Idk, she's really someone I care about and it hurts to see her upset .__. So yeah, Van if you happen to see this please smile soon ok? :D And then there's Ck.... I'll miss him and his rants & sudden random actions & lack of immune system & bad sense of balance. Yeah but at the end of it all he's still strange to me.

And at the end of it all, I never really got to know any one of them that well .___.

[/edited] (further edits in the future muahaha)

THINKING.

2009-07-17T20:32:00.002+08:00

I think I should just migrate over to Wordpress because:

#1: I'M SURE THEY WILL LET ME UPLOAD MY PHOTOS WHENEVER I WANT INSTEAD OF SCREWING ME BAD. WELL, SCREW YOU BLOGGER.

#2: you get to lock certain posts.

#3: Livejournal just doesnt appeals to me -.-

So yup I'm just thinking.... Just thinking. About the time where... ok nevermind ignore me. Lalala anyways school was the usual with the exception of us skiving off PE because we had to go make our IC hahaha. [why couldnt it be bio...] ohwell as I was saying, school was the usual borriiiiiiiiiing but Eds kinda made up for it afterwards. Nowadays it's more of doing stupid dares than actual rehearsing. I actually feel kinda guilty now... :x Competition's around the corner though uh-oh D:

Pyr. Victory must jiayou ok! :D

:x

2009-07-16T20:30:00.002+08:00

天亮了 by S.H.E

天亮了天亮了地球又转一圈了
世界还活生生的存在着还活着没想到我还活着
穿越一场海啸什么滋味我终于亲身体会天崩地裂精疲力竭灵魂不在身体里面
然而万岁万岁终于和你有个了结

你一边我一边我们的世界最好别再重叠
也别再回想那个太长太长的昨天
太多爱太多泪别再这样浪费

天亮了天亮了地球又转一圈了
既然我还幸运的活着当然要全力以赴去快乐
天亮了天亮了世界还是好好的
什么痛都是很渺小的
看太阳不是又升起来了

结束一段感情当然不像搬个家那么方便
太多细节太多碎片堆在回忆那间房间
但是忍耐一点不去碰它就不危险

你没变我没变我们到最后才能懂这一点
人活着不就为了实现一个个心愿
好可惜我和你许了不同的愿

天亮了天亮了地球又转一圈了
既然我还幸运的活着
当然要全力以赴去快乐
天亮了天亮了世界还是好好的
什么痛都是很渺小的看太阳不是又升起来了

我的心是我的不会再给你了
我是我自己的我很快乐

612星球-SHE

满园玫瑰我以为找到我那一朵

认真爱了却狠狠刺伤我的双手

责备什麼人也没有用

玫瑰都红难免看错

望著天空爱是否活在童话裏头

小王子说有些事流浪过才会懂

原来每颗心都有个洞

找不到真爱会一直寂寞 Oh--

我但愿有一个人在等我

在属於我的612星球

好让我忍著痛也愿意往下走

不快乐至少要有梦

一定会有一个人在等我

无条件拥抱著我的所有

相遇前我还要翻越多少山丘

花别谢太快请你等等我

擦乾眼泪一个人漂流在这宇宙

小王子说爱一定开在某个角落

路上相爱的人那麼多

我会幸福吗在什麼时候 Oh—

Self Control + Self Esteem

2009-07-15T20:24:00.003+08:00

It's not like I dont try. I do but this is as far as I'll get. I admit I'm lazy & all but sometimes when I do give me my all, my best shot, my everything, I fail worse than never giving in anything. & the pain leaps doubles & triples, hitting you harder than before because you got hit as much as you care. Which is unfortunately for me, alot.

I also know I'm full of crapshyt excuses.

Ohwell anyways school after IDMI is still mudane haha + Eds rehearsals are still ongoing. My play's not looking that bad and the rest of them are looking really great but OMG less than a week to the actual thing D: Jiayou all of you wonderful looney monkeys! :D & now that we have all seperated tables because we wanna minimise contact [think H1N1] I seem to listen more. I think. Wtv it makes no difference anyway it's not like my new desk partners really talk to me D:

I seem to have seen through it so yup haha thanks for all the concern <3

[edited]

This is from Facebook & it's so damn true it was totally worth clicking the same answer 5times because it repeated its question 5times. Yeah I bolded and coloured almost every line haha. & heck, I'm still on Facebook -.-

"You are a champion of the underdog. You despise intolerance and unfair treatment in any form. You dislike people who pretend to be something they are not and often ‘poke holes’ in other people’s balloons. You have a low self image and you have bursts of anger that usually do not last long. You are a resourceful individual and rarely at loss for new ideas. You are your own worse enemy. You love activity and movement. You are easily affected by what others say and do and a wrong look could easily ruin your whole day. You are abundant in humor, irony, and wit. You like to make plans for the future. You crave love and are extremely affectionate but are rarely able to find the right person. You are not easily satisfied and often bored; you have a great need for attention.

Strengths: Lively – Inventive – Affectionate

Weaknesses: Irritated – Vulnerable – Needy"

eds handover

2009-07-13T21:27:00.004+08:00

I locked my blog but now it's open again. Yay.

Yeah mostly everyone have posted about handover but me. I guess it's my turn now. I needed some time to rearrange the mix-up mumbo jumbo of emotions in me. The problem, as I've figured, is that I'm a strange indecisive & stupid moron. I need to be honest and now I will. At least, to the best of my ablities the truth hurts bad.

What I've wanted to say during handover... didnt come out the way I intended. Like what I've said the seniors had really done a lot for us. The contributions we saw, & those we dont. The seniors had been a really great part of our Eds life and it's not something words can say. I'll miss them, strange enough. Everyone. Especially for Drama. Taking them outta the Eds equation just defies all laws. Sometimes one of them had been harsh with words, sometimes they had their turn at being irritating... But this is what makes them human (we're all flawed) & I guess I'll being especially miss them being imperfect. They werent like the previous batch where the lines between seniors & juniors were very definied. For this batch, we could actually call some of them friends. And now you are back to square one and calling them seniors, because they are leaving.

& you're just left with this gaping hole in your heart. Because a part of your life kinda just faded to black; the curtain call.

Then there's the whole comm thing. Yeah I'm not on comm & this is another gaping hole I have. I just feel incredibly empty after the entire handover process. I know I made this decision, therefore I denied myself the right to regret, the right to disappointment. But it just hits you in the guts with all the other emotions and you just feel like you've got torn open then and there. I guess all along a teeny tiny part of me always craved for it; a secret I felt ashamed of. It's strange having your peers leave for the stage one by one around you. When you see them there and you're here. And then you toyed with the thought of a time-machine & going back to say yes. You wanted to hate yourself for being you, for being indecisive, for being immature. Wished you kept your mouth shut. All the maybes, all the possibilities, you were suddenly hoping again. (as though you didnt learn your lesson) What ifs, what ifs, what ifs just kept swimming about your head.

It's not like I'm entirely upset about it yknw haha I'm sure the new comm will be kickass awesome too :D

Happy sad disappointed hopeful etc etc some of the emotions I had I wasnt even sure of how to identify them. I just went to the Vivo deck and cried my eyes out in the rain. Bu I realised, for real, that I've forgotten how to cry. There was a heck of crying and a couple of tears but I just couldnt cry and let all of it out. I just left Vivo like the empty shell I was. I felt everything & yet nothing at the same time.

The juniors are now the seniors. How is this gonna fit into my script? :/ I will really need time to get use to this. Btw thnks to all those who offered to hear me mope & the pat-on-the-heads :]

Sorry people this isnt rlly the post you're looking for but all vids & photos are on Facebook haha have fun watching :]

Because I'm Stupid

2009-07-10T22:40:00.003+08:00

Because I'm stupid I gave a damn & look at where I am now.

Linkin Park was right; In the end it doesnt even matter.

Once a freak, always a freak. Wth was I thinking?

BOYS OVER FLOWERS + OUR DM :D

2009-07-10T20:04:00.003+08:00

I KNOW I JUST POSTED BUT THIS SERIOUSLY DESERVES TO BE BE POSTED LOL.

All Dunmanians y'all should have already received an email for our beloved DM Mr Teo Chor Howe :D :D :D :D :D (you'll totally understand why I'm spamming emoticons later on) regarding the code of conduct all of us should observe especially in such a period of national crisis called H1N1.

Since I'm such a wonderful person, (I know most of you dont even check your emails but be nice to him go read the email he typed very long leh! :D :D AND IF YOU DONT READ IT YOU WILL REGRETTTTTTTTTT & GO DIG YOUR DELETED FOLDER MUAHAHA) I read skimmed through his email. There were the chim parts we kiddies would find boring now but think it makes absolute sense 10 or 20 years down the road [when you do, you know you're old] and this line totally jumped out at me & have put me on a high since the past 5minutes.

HAIR

Girls with long hair should tie this back neatly. Boys should have short hair that does not touch the ears, and that slopes at the back. Boys should also be clean-shaven. Long hair, "Boys over Flowers" kind of hair style, highlighted hair is undesirable and inappropriate.

#1 point would have to be the mention of BOF. HAHAHAHA I LAUGHED LIKE A LOONEY MONKEY AND SO DID ANGSHUANG WHEN I TOLD HER. Seriously, BOF?! Yknw I told my friends that my dad is more caught up in BOF than I was & they found it so strange that a married guy with kids is interested about flower boys. But apparently it's a phenomenon we can see everywhere LOL. It just proves one point: Nobody can deny the power of the F4 :D Wonder what would happen if they casted Mr Teo as Shinhwa High's DM hahahaha ok I'm seriously going nuts now LOL.

#2: did you notice he only mentioned one line for girls and another paragraph dedicated to the boys? :D I can only think of two reasons which is Jandi had a model student cut & he thinks all of us would go get that hairstyle to attract hawt Korean guys :D Unfortunately if we were to be as stupid as to go cut that [like hello? we dont have her pretty pretty face] we would also be wearing super mini skirts with high socks. I think he'll have a hard time deciding whether to laugh or cry HAHAHA :D another reason would be that simply, girls are a heck better than the boys hahahaha. They all end up like their hair very long then got cut by a lawnmower by the NS people hahaha. Like yknw after they shaved their heads and their hair starts growing out like weeds in the backyard. [in some extreme cases, the weeds look better.]

Plus Mr Teo didnt have anything worry about regarding the BOF hairstyle thing. Because if any student were to attempt any of F4's hairstyle it would just look plain bad on them. Like seriously hahaha only F4 can pull it off. [though it's totally not the case in Junpyo's curly hair & Jihoo's long hair. If they are nuts enough to attempt Junpyo's curly hair they'll just end up looking like Phua Chu Kang]

Best Chem Lesson Ever

2009-07-10T19:29:00.002+08:00

Ehlo there world havent posted in a couple of days I think but ahaha here I am again :D

IDMI week had been killer that's all I have to say. Oh and personally I think our group had already done our best and sure there were flaws but we aint perfect :D The presentation could had been more well rehearsed though but ohwell we were running short of time & all. After IDMI presentation went out to lunch with Cherv + Yiling then went back home D: The two crazy people were awesome though haha we went pencil-case hunting :]

School ended at 10:45 today and we had early recess at 9:15 so yeah muahaha :D History first period was by the trainee teacher. I did not bully him ok people! Quit saying that hahaha :D But he's lucky Charlie woke up late & went out for breakfast during History. Had recess & we were good kiddies coz we sat in the designated areas :D Went back to class 15minutes late because of Cherv & Yiling but Mr Han didnt come in until 10:10. He conveniently forgot.

Mr Han: I'm so sorry I completely forgot there was class today... (sounds like he's in holiday mood le...)
Kaiting: why did you forget more? D:

At 10:15...

Mr Han: Ok that's about all I have to say. Goodbye class!
Ecstastics: 0_0
Ecstastics: Mr Han you have two periods
=after some arguements regarding whether or not the next period is his...=
Mr Han: It cant be my period! This is the wrong timetable!
Ecstastics: Then nobody gave us the right timetable. Ok Mr Han since it aint your period you can go now. Class stand!
Mr Han: =suspicious glint in eye= yknw what I'll wait until the next teacher comes.

We ended up talking about movies until the end of the period LOL. He's seriously a total kid on the inside haha :D

Mr Han: yknw Transformers is so =fill-in-the-blanks-here-yourself-it's-not-positive= When they transform they didnt even say 'Transform & roll out!" ]: (like seriously this emoticon appeared on his face)
Ecstastics: But that's so Power Rangers!
Mr Han: NO POWER RANGERS ARE SO TRANSFORMERS! D:<

Ahahahaha best Chemistry lesson ever :D

Long Week

2009-07-06T20:55:00.003+08:00

IDMI week's here to stay & I've a feeling it'll be a tedious long week. Although today went by really fast, the emotional turmoil I've had in me since today's afternoon had been a struggle to keep up with. IDMI's really quite bothersome haha.

Thanks Jamie + Xin Yi for listening to me rant btw major <3 to the both of you. Such lovely people :D

Now as I think about it there's really no need for me to keep holding on to it like some clingwrap on food. Letting go would be tough but that doesnt mean I cant do it. I would I could & I will. I'll have to believe in myself now that nobody does anyway haha. Even if the world forgets me, I guess even I'll forget myself. It's something that have been a really great part of my life. Like point-to-both-ends-of-the-skies-&-realise-the-skies-have-no-ends kinda great. It's made me smile through a lot and I guess I still love it in a quiet sort of way. I just have to learn to withdraw. Maybe my enthusiasm & passion for it have killed itself in some way but I've yet to learn how to adapt.

This week would be kinda toiling but it's really no biggie muaha.

Eds handover at the end of this week :]

Beautifully Written

2009-07-04T22:31:00.003+08:00

What About Now? by Chris Daughtry

Shadows fill an empty heart
As love is fading,
From all the things that we are
But are not saying.
Can we see beyond the scars
And make it to the dawn?

Change the colors of the sky.
And open up to
The ways you made me feel alive,
The ways I loved you.
For all the things that never died,
To make it through the night,
Love will find you.

What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?
Baby, before it's too late,
What about now?

The sun is breaking in your eyes
To start a new day.
This broken heart can still survive
With a touch of your grace.
Shadows fade into the light.
I am by your side,
Where love will find you.

What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love, it never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?
Baby, before it's too late,
What about now?

Now that we're here,
Now that we've come this far,
Just hold on.
There is nothing to fear,
For I am right beside you.
For all my life,
I am yours.

One Year Later Onew & Jessica

Feels like i had a dream for a long time

After wandering and wandering for a while

As if we had promised,

We are standing here facing each other

Like before after passing four seasons

The beautiful stories we wrote together

The promises of staying together

Forever that we prayed at that time

While reacalling them one by one

I withheld the thought of thinking of you

Because i know my heart won't take it

How was your one year?

I lived trying to forget for a while

Seemed like i was feeling fine for a while

However, i'm realising, as time goes by,

that i can't be without you

What if we were a little more mature back then?

What if we knew what would happen now back then?

Kept having endless regrets,

& had to withhold that thought

Because I didn't have courage to cope with it

One year has passed like that

Are you feeling the same as me by any chance?

Can you give me one more chance?

Now i know that we can never be apart

The only person that i love and love

I wish we could go back to those good times

Those lovely times that were beautiful and happy

Heart aching stories, meaningless quarrels

Let's forget them all and let's not bring them up again

After seasons pass,

Even after many years pass,

I wish there would be no meetings like today.

Not very fond of the first one but the lyrics captured me totally.

Both beautifully written, enough said.

I aim to be the creator of something like that some time down the road haha :]

Life's unbelievely awesome by the way.

He tore her heart in ways no one will know.

2009-07-01T21:38:00.003+08:00

This story is about a boy, who will never know it's about him.

He was a stranger she knew well. A passing shadow in and out of her life. One that was beginning to solidify. A limb, a body, a whole person. He drifted around like the clouds she sees when alone on the grassy patch, like the broken branch in the ocean during a shipwreck.

He could be virtually nothing but also her absolute lifesaver.

His scent was lethal poison to her; his voice killing her softly; his presence suffocating her. Being around him made her lose her breath, attempt to pace her heartbeat. Claustrophobic would be a good word. Yet she wanted more of him. She couldnt help but go closer. It was as though she knew he was the wrong road to drive on but she went on hitting the accelerator anyway.

There were no traffic lights, no boundaries, she just fell off.

He wouldnt know how she was making her feel. The questions that swims about aimlessly in her head. A friend, that's how it will be. Friends. Yeah, she guessed maybe it would be good to keep things that way. He wanted things the way it was (& she said she did so too)

He hurt her unknowningly; by simply appearing. Him in her sight was like a tongue on a icy blade. It stings, burns and she cannot scream. Now she whispers a secret prayer to the wind. She hopes that things were never this way. She doesnt know what's going on. This road she's riding on, where is it leading to? No directions, no instruction manuals. She wish things just never started but it was a one-way with no U-turns.

No brakes. She's about to crash & burn.

SIAN!

2009-07-01T21:09:00.002+08:00

I think this blog is gonna go into hibernation soon .__.

Ohwell start of school. New term fresh start totally different sitting arrangements .__. I'm with Yibo & Mervyn now and Mrs Kumaran doesnt believe in the existance of Charlie .__. which is a very sad thing for Charlie of course but yknw now Mrs Kumaran is not ranked very high on Charlie's list of favourite humans.

Other than that, school life is pretty much the same. Mundane.

I've got to buck up & I need a chem tutor lol.

BACK TO SCHOOL :D or D:

2009-06-28T20:06:00.003+08:00

Ok it's back to school for most of us tmr ohyay great more homework, tests & you name the rest. But lucky for me I've dramaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa tmr :D :D :D

A few reasons why I totally love my Litup cast:

#1: BECAUSE THERE'S RACHEL :D she makes our sucky day seem like nothing with her logic.

#2: BECAUSE WE HAVE JANELL :D She can tell us what happened in The Little Mermaid!

#3: BECAUSE THERE'S SARAH LAI :D she can totally recount what happens during eds better than me on her blog LOL.

#4: BECAUSE THERE'S SIANG :D he's the annoying sadist but without him you wont get Rachel's logic & lame jokes to annoy both Rachel & Janell.

To the rest of my cast, let's just have loads of fun laughing LOL :D

I'm totally high thinking about them I'm ignoring my jianbao in front of me haha ignore me & wtv I say today people I aint the right state of mind :]

Still, on a lower note I dont want school to reopen because I <3>

(and above all, I've to put on my mask & pretend I dont care)

DRAMA :]

2009-06-26T19:48:00.005+08:00

This whole week had been dedicated to drama haha did Singapore Litup scripts for the whole of Tuesday Wednesday & Friday. Totally looking forward to drama today due to Rachel but she wasnt here today D: Our whole cast was very sad and we emo-ed for awhile but yknw what? WE HAVE JANELL :D

Here she is recounting the famous fairytale of The Little Mermaid to her kids (from left) Regina, Vicki, Sarah Lai & Chingying (female) :D

havent been here for awhile so thought y'all would want some form of update muaha i'm really just talking to myself now. Yknw our school library shoo people outta the library at 5pm with a bell! :D I never knw so that's quite dumb of me lah haha.

Rawr H1N1

2009-06-21T18:48:00.002+08:00

Awman supposed to have Eds for like thrice this coming week and you had a very happy Raey when she received the sms asking about who's free for prac & then you had a very sad Raey when she received the sms saying that all rehearsals are gonna be on hold.

What seems to be the problem here hm? H1N1, DUH!

It's denying me of Eds rawr I was so looking forward to drama in my pathetic almost non existant life of mine .______________. Heyyo this is coming from the person that had done the same script over and over and over and over (ok you get my point) and over and over(you rlly hate me dontcha) Ok enough overs. However, I believed none of the other fellow TWF cast have an annoying sister that stole the script and couldnt stop quoting it for days. Yup feel my pain and headache. And now I'm asking to go back to school to hear Miranda miss her book, Knox's speech, us singing The Murderer's Song rlly bad...

I am such a loser =smacks head= but I really miss all of you bad.

Rawr H1N1 .___. I was actually looking forward to AYG. And if they actually stop school for a week, it just means they are shifting it to the back and ending the school terms a week later right? 0__0 Typical.

EDS MEETING + MUGDATE :D

2009-06-19T20:02:00.010+08:00

First of all, Eds meeting with the crazy loony monkeys. All in all it was quite fun haha :D

Here's the reason why they are my crazy loony monkeys. I bet Prissy took these when she wasnt occupied with thinking sadistic sick things haha :] Ohyeah speaking of which...

Say hi to Prissy's bangs! And a very blur as usual Jeviene :D

Haha then BMW-ed over to Renee's house for a mugdate that would had been successful if someone taught me Coordinate Geog .__. Ohwell I read up on Biology instead anyway haha I'm listening to advice that had turned out to be not useful at all, according to Rachel the biology expert aspiring to find a cure for AIDS or cancer .__.

This is blood red plain water :D

It came from this jug of Ribena :x

Let's have chocolate instead of all the funny drinks from above LOL :D

What are they looking at?! (Answer: Renee dispensing ice is a fascinating process to Rachel & Liyee)

BYE WORLD :D I LOVE YOU!

PHOTOS :D

2009-06-17T20:37:00.009+08:00

You see two pieces of waffles right?

But they are really one big bad tasting waffle!

So if you were to go to KFC for the breakfast, I suggest you try the platter thingy instead! (these were taken on my mugdate with Tingyu btw haha)

EPIK PHAIL MUGDATE WITH ZHEN TODAY :D

What is Zhen writing? (obviously anything but hmwk...)

Tada!

We had a super phail mugdate anyway haha it's coz we are all slpyheads that detest history. And bio. And chem. Ok it's just me.

This is Zhen's suspicious glare :x Mine's scarier muahaha.

BYE WORLD.

What would you do when you can no longer

tell apart your lies from the truth?

(the paradoxes weaving into the language you speak)

Awman I Have A Feeling Nobody Reads My Blog D:

2009-06-16T21:31:00.003+08:00

Awman I wasted the whole of today. Well not really I read up on Macbeth for quite a bit of the morning before my mum dragged me out on her hunt for shoes at Bugis. Boy I really dont like shopping .__. I REALLY DONT. No kidding.

Hmmm now that I think about it...

15th June: Date with Shuang & Jamie

17th June: Date with Zhen

19th June: Date with y3s :D

Aha and then next week would be for Eds awman we're having two TWF rehearsals for AYG but seriously I dont mind more haha I miss my crazy looney monkeys :} (I dont miss the TWF script though my sis is driving me up the wall with it) Eh Sylvia just smsed me calling me a pornstar .__. Aint it a wonder why I miss them? :D Looking forward to Friday~

I am desperate for a life ohgawd .__. LALALA HERE'S A QUOTE: WHAT DOESNT KILL YOU MAKE YOU STRONGER.

I think of that when I look at my homework.

MUGdate.

2009-06-15T19:50:00.005+08:00

[edited]

Yeah seriously there was this ulu chair THIS far away from all the other chairs at the very start of the day. Scary right doesnt it remind you of the electric chair for death sentances? :x

Say ehlo to the Eds Comm 2009 :D Shermaine was late so yeah :x I've been meaning to ask: where's Huien? :/

Ok Eds comm interview in the morning haha Jamie sounded like she was having a party with the comm 0_0

After her interview we cabbed over to Kallang Leisure Park for Kbox :D (are you thinking we are rich kiddies that can afford to cab? COZ WE'RE NOT. SHUANG IS!) and and and had crazy fun at Kbox :D

Classic #1: Jamie going 'wth' when the Kbox staff spoke to us in Chinese! :D (the other time we went Kbox the staff did this too and Jamie spoke Japanese gibberish. When the staff came back he spoke Jap too wth hahaha :D)

Classic #2: Raey must definitely sing Dong Jie :D (shuang thought I was gonna cry at Qing Tian)

Classic #3: Shuang & Jamie singing "Gee" when an emo song was playing on the screen instead hahahaha. (it's "Gee" by SNSD go youtube it!)

Yup went nuts singing loudly on the microphone. Jamie read my inbox (without my permission ahem) & rolled + laughed VERY loudly on the couch. Ohwell that cant beat our crazy experience trying to locate a drain & flag a taxi. The fellow thought he was seeing things I think.

Mugged at the platform outside NLB. I REALLY MUGGED OK JAMIE IS MY NEW CHEM TUTOR HAHA. But an epik phail one though she taught me Chem with the answer sheet I provided .__.

All in all quite a fruitful day because I learnt how to figure out valencies & refreshed my memory on ionic bonding! And and and if you bubble carbon dioxide through concentrated sulfuric acid, the latter acts as a drying agent! (I sound like I ate model answers for dinner or sth :x)

Bye world.

DATES :D

2009-06-12T21:36:00.003+08:00

Haha ehlo there world had been busy dating a couple of gfs for the past two days haha :D

Yesterday: Mudate with Tingyu + Movie date with Vicki! :]

Attempted to mug with Tingyu haha I did a little bit of History while she read her Biology textbook. ( ____ pages to go!) Gossiped and talked like the mad people we were and argued over who was the weirder freako (I insist I am, aha) Ohwell it was funny (albeit not the most constructive mugdate ever) But one of the most successful ones I have yet (I actually touched foolscap!)

Afterwards Vicki & I explored Vivocity and watch Hannah Montana hahaha. And we were so smart in guessing the reaction of the people in our front row =ahemahemeyesoffmygfs= Cherv & Eli watched the same movie 3rows in front of us haha. It was surprisingly, not bad :D Taylor is prettaye haha.

Today: Singapore Art Museum with Xinyi + Wen Ning

Spent my whole day being retarded with my two lovelies today haha <3>

The exhibition was quite small scaled though but I love the one on the numerals :] Travelled and fought over whether or not we should go watch a movie and epik phailed in attempting to find our way back to City Hall. (We walked one GIANORMOUS round around the area before returning to the S.A.M. to take a bus) Well, we finally made it back to Suntec City in one piece but we missed the movie we wanted for the next slot was too late ]: Ohwell ended up chatting at New York New York anyway haha. Went to Parkway's Borders and met Zhen :D Then sums up my day pretty much.

I knw I dont sound very exciting but today had been really high hahaha I mean hello, it's those two crazy women. But I'm very tired now haha cant really find the energy to make my posts as interesting as the trip itself had been so yeah :]

BATTLE OF THE SEXES

2009-06-10T21:39:00.003+08:00

Saw this off Weijie's blog and got me thinking. And here's the question of the day:

WHO'S EMOTIONALLY STRONGER: GUYS VS GIRLS.

I've asked about 10 people so far. So far majority thinks it's the male gender for they are generally considered to be stronger both inside and out. They are able to hold it in longer but really, I dont see how that's a good thing.

here's another point to ponder: what does it mean to be emotionally stronger, hm?

If you cant answer that, you cant answer my question ]:

Ohwell this continues here tag if you're interested in replying haha :D

Now that I think about it, I think guys have a bad rap awww. They always expected to be that pillar of strength. What happens if they need a pillar of strength too? Or when they fall? Those who answered 'guys' their reason mainly were the fact that guys hardly break down 0__0

Well for girls breaking down is not really a form of buckling under pressure. I guess it's more of a form of release, it's a form of coping too :D And and and we're able to face up to the downs of life faster and (often) better than guys would haha.

Here's a totally imaginary scenario:

Boy A and Girl A are dating. Third party appears. (we wont play the blame game here eh, it takes two hands to clap)

Say third party is a guy and the girl leaves with him. What would Boy A do?

#1: get another girl (typical, tsk)
#2: emo over the loss of his girl (and then laments that he must have be lousier than the other fellow to his bedroom wall)
#3: punch the other fellow (violent tendencies...)
[ok gimme other possiblities I'm not a guy yeah?]

So yeah but from wtv I've listed, Boy A havent really faced up to the actual WHY of this break up hm? All of the above are, sad to say, forms of escape.

Say third party is a girl and the guy leaves with her. What would Girl A do?

#1: CRY (DEFINITELY)
#2: get another boy (aish...)
#3: girl talk (aha this is sth guys never do. Talking about their feelings is like taboo 0_0)
#4: bitchslap the other girl (i guess both genders could get violent)
#5: mopes about and do nothing for a loooooooooooong time until her girlies shake her awake (kinda linked to #3)

#6: emo over the loss of him (and then laments that she must have be lousier than the other gal to her girlies during #3)

And yknw what, the list kinda goes on for girls so yeah lazybumkin here! :D

But what's shown here is that girls do actual facing-up (eg talking crying etc) :D I've shown alot of bias here so yup, your turn! :D

IDMI FILIMING :D

2009-06-09T20:52:00.002+08:00

Haha my group is beyond awesome for Idmi we've wrapped up filming in two days! :D There's a heck of editing to do of course bt wtv, the point is WE FINISHED FILIMING IN TWO DAYS.

We are highly efficient people :D

So yup we had kinda a rocky start and all (ahem forgetful people ahem) but ohwell it went quite well yeah? :] I feel so accomplished as their director haha sorry if I were a bit harsh ok .__. All in all, great job done my teammates :]

Went out & got myself lost on my first date with Cherv & Yiling LOL. Cherv you blurpok! And I'm really dumb I counted on my watch and I still got it wrong wth maths really isnt my thing ]: Didnt watch any movie as we had at first bt had dinner at Secret Recipe & freaked the staff there LOL.

Waiter: ok so would that...
Yiling: =smacks raey with the menu=
Raey: wth!
Yiling: =grins her evil yiling grin=
Raey: =glares=
Waiter: ok you know what I'm gonna keep these dangerous items.

:D :D :D

Raey: I'M SO GONNA ASK THT FELLOW (cannnot say the question here)
Waiter: ok here's your bill.
Raey: eh why this bill so funny coloured? Is this a new design for your receipts?
Waiter: um I'm planning to change the ink cartridge later...
Raey: yeah I figured I just wanna see your expression.
Yiling: eh I thought you said you're gonna ask him?
Waiter: wht? for my number?
Raey: NO! D:

:] :] :]

Yup we had fun alright even though it came at the price of funny glares from the Secret Recipe staff I dont think they'll welcome us there ever again LOL. Told my girlies stuff hahaha shhh it's my first date with them only hahaha what would I say on my second date hm?

TAG REPLIES!

Angshuang: come on the 19th ok? :]

Eli: hahaha you really think I can? awww :]

YZ: I miss ya too ]: Mugdate!

Rachel: you crazy woman you're supposed to tutor me bio! (P.S. I cannot find my bio file)

Jamie & Sylvia: you two ah... Idk whether to take as a compliment or wht .__.

Wen Ning: you say de ah later you die of immense blood loss not my fault :D

Candice: yeah which means handover must be ESPECIALLY memorable. Muahaha

RHYTHM XXIII

2009-06-07T21:17:00.005+08:00

I've 3 girlfriends and all of them are principals of ________ :D Very proud boyfriend here haha :D

Cherv's unglam haha :D

I had great fun at Rhythm this year people so yup great job, really :]

One-Liner

2009-06-07T16:36:00.002+08:00

I just came here to post this random thought of mine:

I MAY BE A VERY STUPID HUMAN BEING BUT THAT DOESNT MEAN I CANNOT BE A SUPER SMART ALIEN AT THE SAME TIME.

(i knw i said one line but ha, take that world & non-believers)

Ninety-Nine <\3

2009-06-05T20:39:00.006+08:00

Twenty-one hundred different kinds of pain, seventy-five million types of hurt, three thousand possiblities lost in a minute..

Twenty-one hundred different kind of pain

There was a kind that you could inhale.

A kind that cracks your vision.

A kind that blurs your dreams.

A kind that make Pandora's Box a gift.

A kind that fix everything wrong.

A kind that sears, a scar that wouldnt heal.

A kind that denies you access anywhere

A kind like thunder, tears open your wounds.

The kind that makes every movement difficult, every heartbeat ache

When he's there and he cant see you.

Seventy-five million types of hurt

When you disappoint.

When you're disappointed.

When hope steals your breath

When you dont matter anymore.

When being tired isnt an excuse.

When trust dont exist between friends.

When the wind howls on a summer night.

When paperboats sink.

When you find out his scent's poison and love's a drug

And there's no cure for this addiction, even when robbed of it.

Three thousand possibilities

Could have held hands to the end of time.

Could have been each other's favourite stranger

Could have slept under the stars together.

Could have endured the distance when next to you.

Could have our hands being the perfect puzzle.

Could have your shadow imprinted in every corner.

Could have been the cause of your smile.

Could have everything be once upon a dream

Could haves, would haves, might haves.

You, have became my most beautiful regret.

OUTING WITH NING :D

2009-06-03T22:01:00.001+08:00

Ok I've to kinda chiong this post and I'm not sorry I tell you Quadratic Functions & Inequalities! (it's right here in front of me near my laptop but I've only done one question.)(I'm only confident of that question)

Anyways went out with Wen Ning today we ate like two big cups of yogurt LOL. And camwhored plus talked like crazy thanks for listening to my crap. Like serious crap because if you heard what we said you'll agree there wasnt much content and we spent 3hrs talking. On random stuff. Must be a girl thing. We're awesome camwhores who can talk non stop :D Awkward pauses here and there where I'll stare and the skies saying I'm tired of Life because if I were to use that 3hrs on my academics instead... Ohwell heck I've come to terms with myself for not being a mugger.

We toured Tampines One & Tampines Mall. Turned it upside inside out haha photos with Ning you can go to her blog to see haha :D This holidays seem so awfully short. Awman.

P.S. I need help for Maths. Like seriously.

P.S.S I need more help for Chemistry like seriously, last year's EOY paper?!

Open House + Danzage! :D

2009-05-31T19:58:00.014+08:00

OPEN HOUSE PHOTOS :D

Our pretty boards :D

DOOR GIFT: BALLOONS THAT EVERYONE LOVES.

THE MAN WE PRAISED IN FRONT OF PARENTS EVEN THOUGH HE CALLED MY FRIEND A LLAMA:

Okie dokey overall open house was quite a success! :D Thanks to all the lovely seniors and juniors sorry i was such a lousy in-charge :x Cas you did a great job though! :D The dancers were awesome as usual attracting most of the crowd no matter what muahaha. I am very proud of my CCA so yeah yay for Eds we rock you flop :D The balloons were a big hit and everyone was stealing everyone's.

Went to Angshuang's house to bathe and change for Danzage after we cleared up for Open House. Jamie took very long to bathe for some strange reason 0_0 Must be a girl thing that I lack. Ohwell I came up from the showers and Angshuang changed then we went over to Pastamania. Jamie treated us yay free dinners because I'm a poor poor girl .___. Met Siyin and Maureen there though. Bus-ed back to DHS with my two friends calling me a porn star .__. And my bag is a suspicious article LOL.

Tada!

At Angshuang's house. The stupid timer beeped along with the banging outside wth hahaha.

Camwhored with Jamie at the library when we were attempting to escape from the evil eyes of Shoecatcher! Who demanded we went home to change my shoes even though I lived in Yio Chu Kang & my school's in Tanjong Rhu! Oh no what did Raey and Jamie did to save themselves from the meanie Shoecatcher? Stay tuned and you still wont find out (unless you come ask me) (P.S. the evil Shoecatcher hates lollypops) (P.S.S. they had awesome seniors that helped :D)

Danzage was great. Freaking awesome really. I had foresight by liking Cry Me A River even before it was on muahaha :D I feel psychic. All of the dancers did well so well done to all of y'all. Make me so jealous of all dancers wah how I wished I could do hiphop or something. Ohwell I can always dream.

The Bright Side

2009-05-29T20:57:00.002+08:00

Ohwell I guess it could had been worse. Maybe that's what life is about. It have to drop you waaaay down therefore making every step up an improvement.

My GPA may be bad and all but at least now I've gotten the real wake up call. (hey tht kinda rhymes...)

Cheer-upper #1: BEING INTERCLASS CHAMPS :D

Gosh was interclass seriously just yesterday? :D Ohwell I had crazy loads of fun having lunch with my Ecstatics :] Awww Jt we didnt get to say hi :D :D Whatever we had loads of fun with your phonecalls anyway I am your gangster bodyguard :] Lalala~ WE WON INTERCLASS YAY YAY :D

Cheer-upper #2: Danzage concert with Jamie + Shuang tmr! Cant wait :]

Like all upsides there's a downside. I never meant for things to turn out this way I'm really trying my best but half the time my best aint before. Please dont pin hopes on me only to watch me fall. Dont run on me after I've fell there's enough hurt and pain there already. Thanks for trusting me, having faith in me but I have to say this: I'm a known disappointment. All of you have enough disappointment in your lives I'm sure. Maybe it's just me. Maybe it's my genes. Maybe 'cause I cant be bothered. Maybe there's nothing left for me to believe.

Yknw, the mask I wear is pain.

"Your mask is pain. For some reason or another you just can't seem to find a positive outlook on life. You get angry when people try to relate with how you feel, because you're convinced they won't understand. Deep down you know there should be a million reasons for people to want to get to know you, but you often find yourself closing yourself off from those around you. You have your select friends, but can't help but want something more. You find opening up difficult, but you do find your ways to let things out. You have your good days, but even through the good times, you feel like there is always going to be those feelings that don't sit right." -Facebook.

A Whole New World

2009-05-28T21:32:00.009+08:00

A picture speaks a thousand words. I would caption them but yeah haha my Biology file calls out to me desperately .__. I'm dreading yet looking forward to tmr for some strange reason. Haha this crazy people above are this completely new chapter in my life I've finally grown to accept haha. Thanks life, maybe you are nice after all.

3ECSTASY IS THE CHAMPION CLASS :D

.____________.

2009-05-27T20:00:00.002+08:00

I koped this from Sabbie's blog because I'm one bored lazy procrastinator.

Quiz time :D
How much have you changed?

10 years ago: 5 years old 0_0

Who did you have a crush on?
Gee Idk... Winnie the Pooh? :D

Who was your best friend?
I dont think I had a best friend. I was friends with everybody! :D

Have you been in an accident?
At 5years old? I cant remember...

Where did you live?
I still live in Singapore :D

Did you believe in Santa Claus?
I do but that didnt prevent him from not coming for 14 years in a row .__.

Did you have long or short hair?
Long, definitely LOL.

What school were you in?
I think PAP or sth hahaha.

6 years ago: 9 years old

Who did you have a crush on?
Why would have a crush at 9?! I was like, p4?

Who was your best friend?
Hilary :D

Have you been in an accident?
Nah nothing major enough for me to remember.

What was your favourite color?
Baby blue haha.

Where did you live?
I didnt migrate if you must know.

Did you believe in Santa Claus?
DIDNT YOU SEE WHAT I WROTE PREVIOUSLY?

What was your favourite past time?
Reading. I was super obsessed with borrowing books from the school's library at p4 -.-

Did you have long or short hair?
Long.

What school were you in?
Mayflower Primary.

2 years ago: 13 years old

Who did you have a crush on?

Aha, which one are you referring to? ;]

Who was your best friend?
Wen Ning, year one mah.

Had you been in an accident?
Nah, aint I lucky?

What was your favourite color?
It was blue black and purple. I argued like crap over purple being the international gay color with my friends -.-

Where did you live?
Hmm, quit being such a stalker?

Did you believe in Santa Claus?
I STILL BELIEVE UP TO THIS DUMB DAY BUT DOES THAT BRING ME ANY PRESENTS? NO! D:

Did you have long or short hair?
OMG short hair -.- And and and I look like a pancake .__.

What school were you in?
Dunman High

Now: 14 years old (13 actually :D)

Who do you have a crush on?
Nobody really. Unless you wanna count BOF's F4 :D

Who is your best friend?
haha I've quite a few now leh.

Have you been in an accident?
What's wrong with you?!

What is your favourite color?
B&W, blue and purple, army green for accessories

Where do you live?
Refer to above thank you very much!

Do you believe in Santa Claus?
YES I DO BUT STILL NO PRESENTS!

Do you have long or short hair?
LONG. I dont think I'll be having short hair in quite awhile -.-

What school are you in?
Dunman High School!

Ok whoever wants it take it haha shant tag anyone really. I really shouldnt be here and I'm already in the holiday mood which equates REALLY BAD FOR RAEYANGLIANG [quoting Wenxin]

Holey crap what's wrong with the world? Or really, what's wrong with me?

"Shove your face into a mirror. And you'll see the scars you see each day are really just you."

EDS NIGHT '09 PART II

2009-05-25T19:49:00.010+08:00

THANKS FOR ALL OF THE ABOVE :D

My lovely girlies.

Beltrix!

Tsk why didnt you sleep the night before Prissy? :]

Drama practicing our mass dance in the blackbox...

Doodles on the blackbox board :D

Sorry I dont have a lot of photos this year it's really really a huge regret for me that I didnt get to take photos of my y4 seniors like I did last year. And Mr Ken too though I'm sure I've a couple of his retarded candids lying around in my folders... Ok no time to emo now History and LA calls so yeah will update after tmr I foresee this wk as another killer wk ah .__.

EDS NIGHT 2009 PART I

2009-05-24T17:14:00.007+08:00

Photos later, seriously I have major koping to do since I didnt get to take many shots by myself .__.

It was a blur of activities since the start of the morn with me reaching the earliest to construct the electric shock heart pumpy thingie. Ohwell the juniors joined me not long after anyways. Awaited the arrival of 9am so we could use the PAC for a fullrun & blah. Well we had that and there was so much nervous energy already with tension building up. I'm sorry if I annoyed/pissed/irritated some of you but I've really no control of myself nowadays. Includes my temper and use of words etc.

Ate waffles for lunch gawd I feel fat already. Ohwell after lunch we returned to the blackbox for the PAC was to be used by the senior high production. I was moping in the blackbox. Yknw, most people cry because they are sad. I guess I kinda broke down abit at the blackbox because the tears inside had already wanted to spill but I swallowed it half the time. 不一定是难过而是因为泪水已经无法储藏。

Left the blackbox because I was feeling trapped and ultra claustrophobic again. Went out to breathe in fresh air while the rest were practising mass dance. I didnt return anyways I went down to help Lawyer film the Senior High's double-bill performance. They were great, really. And I swear I took good shots I really did! I ran around with the camera after Lawyer decided he had his fun with it & wanted a turn in filming. Bleh but ohwell I was the only one who stayed until the end anyways when I returned to the holding room everyone was already in costume, darn.

Snippets from one of the plays the Senior High put up [[The Road Runners]]

Kelvin: So, what do you think of me?
Lionel: Um... I think you're a really interesting person?
Kelvin: Great! WANNA START A RELATIONSHIP? :D

Jessica: Ohwell how did it go?
Kelvin: I think I came on too hard.
Jessica: How hard?
Kelvin: I tried to take his pants off?

:D :D :D

Rushed to change after the senior high play and level of activity hit climax... after dinner. There was this frenzy and everyone was like ARGH! and URGH! and DID WE FORGET ANY DUMB THING and WTF CAN YOU SHUT YOUR BLOODY MOUTH AND LISTEN? I seriously think my throat feels kinda weak today not from the talking onstage but on the trying to scream above the din before the performance. Put on our facepaint (make up for leads) and jumped about. Dodged cameras. Watched San Peng work his magic with his apparently very expensive Japan hairgel :D Gave out cards and hugs. Listened to the pep talks from seniors...

Ck: Ok people I just wnna let y'all know I really think all of you are great actors & actresses!
Crowd: 0_0 (for a split second anyway)
San Peng: Ok people 123 awwwww...
Crowd: AWWWWWWW :]

7.30pm creeped dangerously near but we were still in the holding room due to some unforseen circumstances. Then suddenly came the call saying that the dancers had finished their mass dance & we were like switched to RUN-WE-NEED-TO-CARRY-PROPS mode. Did Touched With Fire and it went really really well. Though I really deserve a smack for not focusing .__.

Yup after Touched With Fire we mass-dumped the props in the left & right wings (because we simply dont have a literal backstage) and went into RUN-WE-NEED-TO-WASH-OFF-FACEPAINT-IN-TWO-MAYBE-THREE-MINUTES-BECAUSE WE ALSO NEED TIME TO MOVE THE BLOODY PROPS BACK ONSTAGE TOO mode. That went rather successfully though if you must know. (I excluded the screams & shouts & unable to catch our breath part) Started Caucasian Chalk Circle Part I which went smoothly. After which was the Latin Dance by the two y1 dancers. Jamie & I had the honour of introducing it :]

(I'm gonna write the script here 'cause I feel like it & 'cause I know Angshuang's reading this :D) (see the extents I go for my girlfriends :D)

Raey: Ladies & Gentlemen, Boys & Girls, and all those that dont belong in the above categories... I hope all of you are hving a rocking good time so far. Insert smiley face here

Jamie: ok.. moving on something educational. You know what? Latin dance is NOT a tube of toothpaste

Raey: Latin dance is also NOT a red furry monster that says 'hi welcome to Elmo's world!

Jamie: Latin dance is NOT a dog

Raey: Latin dance is NOT H1N1

Jamie: Latin dance is NOT a hotdog

Raey: Latin dance is NOT counted in your GPA

Jamie: your GPA dont count Latin Dance

Raey: Latin Dance is not Jamie

Jamie: Latin dance is not Raey

Raey & Jamie: & Latin dance is definitely NOT Mr Ken!

Raey & Jamie =stares at each other=

Jamie: but you know what's really IS latin dance?

Raey: you know what's really really IS latin dance?

Jamie: SWEET

Raey: SUGAR

Raey & Jamie: CANDYMAN!

Yup intermission and we werent allowed to go out and happy-happy with our friend ]: Stayed in the holding room and lalala about the props. (by lalala I meant: DO WE HAVE ______! WHICH SIDE OF THE STAGE?!)

Caucasian Chalk Circle started after Mr Ken's monologue and the y3 dance. Apparently Mr Ken used Jamie's well-toned & llama joke in his monologue. Which can only mean one thing: he's desperate for material :D I mean, the llama joke was so last year Mr Ken! We missed it totally so we dont know the specifics but we're so gonna make him redo it on monday :] So yeah back to Caucasian Chalk Circle Part II. I think the audience like it more because ~~they finally found something they know they can definitely laugh at~~ we were so damn funny :D

y4 dance followed by our encore item "New Dead Man's Play". Ck was awesome seriously thhough he still cant do the Spongebob voice and was so loud the people didnt get to hear Candice's line :x Either that or Candice was too soft. There was a major boo-boo and the crowd went 0______0 but yeah we got over it :/ Anyways, the crowd loved the Touched With Fire parody the most. Because of...

HIGHLIGHT #1:
Little Girl: you talk alot of crap lady nobody quotes old Victorian novels around here. Anyways I've studied in Dunman High for all my life & all I've ever do is MUG & MUG & MUG! You feel like gagging sometimes. Anyways, what are you doing here? You lost or something?

Miranda: This is my house. I live here.

HIGHLIGHT #2:

Miranda: I followed his instructions.

Chorus: I turned on the machine, warmed it up, increased the voltage. I WAS TOUCHED WITH POWER!

Chorus: It burned and threated to engulf me. I shocked and shocked and shocked until...

Miranda: I held a charred and blackened body in my hands.

:D :D :D

Well that was our last play for the night and we reached the REAL end of Eds Night. Ended it off with our mass dance and then we could finally go happy-happy with our friends. I was so really touched by the appearance of all my girlies :D Cheryl was the trigger factor to my waterworks that were already threatening to gush out after the end of it all. I guess it's because this is such a beautiful ending to our weeks of hard work. It paid off and in a much better way than expected. Simply said, awash with relief.

The girlies gave me a group hug then I saw Cheryl among all of them and I just cried. (lousy fellow .__.) Ohwell means I care ok. And Markia you didnt say hi to me :D I made everyone else cry too haha I never knew I wielded this much influence over y'all haha. Even yiling cried! I think. Ohwell.

Thanks for all the presents people I really appreciate every single one of them and I really thank all of you for coming. Hope y'all had as much fun watching it as we did putting up for you.

Made the props migrate back to the blackbox manually and most of the people had already left leaving us. Haha the 4th floor was really dark so the juniors we had a fear of the dark were singing their way back up haha. (I've never been afraid of the dark haha yay me) Left school at around 11pm and ran for the bus at 11.05pm. Told Ck to die.(coughmaureencough) Still, it occurred to me how this is their last Eds Night ever and they'll be leaving soon. Gawd I'll miss them .___. & then I hated myself for forgetting to take a snapshot of each one of them like I did with the y4 seniors last year .__.

Reached home at 12+ haha.

Took from Weilee's Fb.

Claustrophobic

2009-05-20T19:47:00.003+08:00

How is it possible that you can feel so helpless being a crowd? The feeling engulfs you. The breathlessness kicks in soon after. Helplessly you began your desperate clamber back to life. You wish you could catch your breath. Just to fill your lungs with that fresh clean air. You turned around trying a failed plan to escape. It's a corner here, another dead end there. It's like being thrown into Pandora's box and this time everyone else could get out but you.

You feel claustrophobic among the strangers you knew.

Yup sorta updating for today haha. I'm watching BOF now seeing as I wont be able to catch it this coming saturday. Eds Night is so near (so far, so distant.) and the clock is ticking and counting down. Rehearsals had been the way they are: just like that. Ohwell.

"I'm a handsome guy but I'm not a nice guy"
"Then please throw about the stereotype that all nice girls like nice guys"

Eds Countdown

2009-05-16T20:14:00.002+08:00

Heyyo world havent updated for two days (I think) so yup have to make up with a post of sorts for y'all :D

Anyways, had full dress rehearsal after Chemistry supplementary. Had it in one of the discussion rooms in the new library. Comfy chairs, cool aircons but the shelves are still kinda bare because it's not really that ready yet but ohwell :D

I still dont like the PAC's itty bitty backstage but ahaha that's all I have to say anyway. Like I mentioned before we had our full dress rehearsals before migrating back to the blackbox for some sort of debrief from Mr Ken. He read for us the judges's comments from SYF and all but yeah I still dont understand the result .__.

Stupid shoe man =glares=

Shall update about today tomorrow! (that didnt sound right) my maths assignment calls now haha I promise photos too! :D

EHLO PEOPLE

2009-05-14T17:39:00.004+08:00

Ehlo people I guess I owe y'all a decent update (though who am I kidding hardly any living soul reads this blog. The truth is so awfully sad)

Anyways, I'm back in action and returned to school after being ill for like, 3 days? Minor bout of flu plus fever but it's ok I'm much better now :] Well today was a typical Thursday was supposed to go Parkway with the Ecstatic girlies but couldnt coz #1: my mum says no .__. and #2: I had Chem practical make-up anyway. I hope my copper sulphate/carbonate/oxide (pick the right one I suck in chem) crystals turn out ok :D

Ok cant wait for Eds tmr! If anyone still want tickets can still tell me ok? :]

And I'll love you until the end of time.

You Are Elmo

Sweet and innocent, you expect everyone to adore you. And they usually do!

You are usually feeling: Talkative. You've got tons of stories to tell. And when you aren't talking, you're laughing.

You are famous for: Being popular, though no one knows why. Middle aged women especially like you.

How you life your life: With an open heart. "Elmo loves you!"

The Sesame Street Personality Quiz

LOL I'M ELMO! :D Although I'm very happy with this quiz result, I dont really enjoy the middle aged women part :x And I dont expect people to adore me! .__.

You Are Rain

You are dark and dramatic. You tend to be a bit over the top.

You have strong emotions and they can change quickly. You are tempestuous.

You are wild and unpredictable. You tend to overwhelm and surprise people.

While you are aggressive, you are also a homebody. You don't really care for physical activities.

Are You Rain or Snow?

Interesting. I've always like the rain.

You Are Midnight

You are more than a little eccentric, and you're apt to keep very unusual habits.

Whether you're a night owl, living in a commune, or taking a vow of silence - you like to experiment with your lifestyle.

Expressing your individuality is important to you, and you often lie awake in bed thinking about the world and your place in it.

You enjoy staying home, but that doesn't mean you're a hermit. You also appreciate quality time with family and close friends.

What Time Of Day Are You?

I'm eccentric! :D

You Are 16% Girly

Um... you're a guy, right? If not, you're the most boyish girl in the world.

And for you, that's probably the ultimate compliment.

How Girly Are You?

Take that Mummy dearest!

You Are Brainy Sexy

You are sexy because you are smart. People know that there is more to you than meets the eye.

You are alluring and mysterious. While many people are intrigued by you, the feeling isn't mutual.

It takes a lot for someone to turn you on. First and foremost, you're only attracted to someone who's incredibly brilliant.

But you just don't go for brains alone. Physical attractiveness is something you won't compromise on.

You of all people can afford to be picky. You are demanding, but you are also in demand.

And when someone gets you alone, you're truly amazing. Not many people get to see you in action.

What's Sexy About Your Name?

I dont get this .__.

When your best aint enough

2009-05-11T17:11:00.003+08:00

It's nothing you'll tell yourself, it's nothing.

As much as you are genuinely happy for your friend, you sometimes cant help but wish you were the one getting the praises, the pat on the back, the job-well-dones. You then want to slap yourself afterwards for thinking this way but it's just involuntary. You're jealous, or envious? You hope really hard that if you were to work hard enough, if you to squeeze your eyes shut and wish on a falling star maybe someday the person in the spotlight may be you.

But really, if life was so good.

You wake up and realise actually no matter how hard you try, no matter how much effort you put in, the hours you spend behind close doors attempting to perfect something you can rightfully call yours. No matter what, your best just aint enough for this world. And the most pathetic part is, they dont see the hours you've put in, the tears and blood you have shed. They say you aint worth it, you aint deserving.

Sometimes, the irony comes when you locked those closed doors again for the last time ever, you hear knocks coming for you on the door. You shut your eyes, your ears, wanting to hear nothing. Liars, you called them, liars. Your room is your cell, your little piece of heaven. You have been bluffed one time too many to venture out again. They may saw down the door, they may choose to flame your safety zone just to flush you out but what they dont understand is that you have already took up the option of staying there and so did your head and heart.

When it comes to most basic, you dont matter anymore.

Do you know why hope was the last thing to come out from Pandora's box? Because it is the deadliest killer of them all. A patient lying on his deathbed hopes for a cure, a teacher hopes the student she had seen grown up may actually mature, parents hope their kids turn out right.

You hoped for something really simple. You hope you would stop hoping.

Hope kills you silently, swiftly, making no sound at all. The best part is that it kills you from the inside, consuming you softly so no one will notice anything wrong. You'll pour your everything into it and it will devour you. When you're left with nothing but disappointment at the end of it, you attempt to go back and pick up the shards, the broken pieces but there's really nothing left.

Nothing at all.

Rocking On & On

2009-05-08T22:37:00.002+08:00

Decided to blog after contemplating and procrastinating for 2 entire hours shall sleep after I finished this post off. Today seems to go by very fast even History zoomed by with Ms Ling teaching Mao Ze Tung & the Maoist China 0_0

Eds was kinda productive we took ages to complete one run LOL and then started blocking the last bit halfway through but we'll reach there in time I'm sure :D Ck fell asleep while lying down on the floor and Janell did some weird egyptian dance thing that reminded me of Tarzen when he havent learnt how to walk properly hahaha :D Wenxin flashed! :D ok just kidding she didnt literally but yeah haha.

"...& Juliet is the sun!" = "she's hawt!"

No photos today this is a short post because I wanna go sleep le. Btw here's a note to myself to blog about HCL lessons Mr Han & reminder to do my homworrrrrrrrrrrk.

Yup that's it bye world! Sleep tight and hope you have pleasant dreams unlike the ones I do.

"Have you ever had a dream so bad you could just never run away from it? I do, except when I'm asleep"

[edited] TAG REPLIES! :D

Vivian: ~~you're seriously one heck of crazy woman~~ I had fun with you haha link liao!

Tingyu: ah but which one? Yeah Mr Han & Yiling are hilarious :D Yes cant wait for June holidays!

Maureen: yeah but he can be mean too haha :x Yup ck sucks, big time :]

Weilee: DYT BETTER THAN EFRON!

Eli: haha but they are mine D: =hides= ask Zhang Ai Qiang to buy for you LOL.

Rachel: yup he's funny but when he's chiding people it's 0_0

Sarah: yeah you super unglam lah haha. Kaiting looks retarded.

Jt: yup definitely :D Ehlo Jt!

Sabbie: ~~like I said, hyperventilate and die~~ Efron will never be as good looking as DYT, even in his next life :D Plus I think he's really busy so yeah .__.

EHLO THERE WORLD

2009-05-07T19:01:00.004+08:00

Idk why but there's still sudden heightening in my enthusiasm for my beloved CCA because I've been looking forward to it since rehearsals on Monday :D ~~so yeah screw you I aint gonna let you dampen my spirit~~

Today's been a crazy day with Mr Han Mrs Kumaran & 3E haha (albeit not as crazy as we could go with Beltrix & Lin Lao Shi omg rumours could just fly all over the place) Ohwell had fun with the girlies after school ended up gossiping instead of mugging tsk us. Nvm shall mug Biology now. I feel fat .__.

NPCC day today and Kaiting in uniform!

Sarah was like, "Kaiting later I wanna take picture with you!"
KT: "orh ok later"
Mr Han: =because Sarah's exclaimation wasnt that soft= "oh Kaiting you very hot ah?"
KT: 0_0 then "yeah i very hot"
Mr Han: "of course lah you wearing that uniform wah"

Awesome.

PICTURE SPAM

2009-05-06T19:35:00.014+08:00

Shall post the random crap I've took over the days while attempting to memorise Chemistry notes. I think one of the things Eds definitely help me improve is last minute cramming. Like how I seriously didnt memorise my lines for rehearsals on Monday and Mr Ken announced we were supposed to be off scripts. I memorised my lines while hiding behind the box though haha very proud of myself! :D It also helps that I dont have a lot of lines to begin with so yeah haha :D

If I can steal something from someone I wanna steal

Tingyu + Rachel's piano abilities (I knw I'm a greedy pig)
Xin Yi's drawing skills
Wen Xin and the Eds dancers' dancing
Ck + Kaiting + Rachel + Jamie's brains (ok sounds really wrong. Like some recipe for some herbal soup)
Wen Ning's PE grades :D

Ok shall end the list here for now it seems to be a lot even though there's only 5 lines up there. Ohwell I knw I'm a greedy piggy who cares.

Btw, Lecture was awesome today go Mr Ken :D (inside joke ahem)

My mug that Xin Yi drew for me :] (I paid for it of course)

Found this cute scribble on 3F's board.

Evidence of Mrs K's awesome sense of humour :D

And this were the stickers Sarah Kaiting & I won from Hong Lao Shi :D

Yeah now you see where did the missing stickers in the previous photographs went.

Life can also be a seesaw with yiling on the other end

2009-05-05T20:30:00.003+08:00

Life is a seesaw with Yiling on the other end: violent ups and downs.

Anyways my day started out wonderful today :D then it turns awfullly awful because I realised jianbao was due today ._. Then it was a kinda a monotone because I was nodding off in Biology. Went high again because I strike Bingo twice during HCL and won really cute stickers (I feel like I am back in kindergarden LOL keeping the kid in me alive) Then it was a droop because chem and maths are my killers. It kinda lifted to a moderate level during SOVA only to drop to an all time low during studio work. I seriously suck at Art & I was so pissed and screwed I utter vulgarities for the first time in months. Nevertheless I am still very proud of myself :]

That's about my day now I've to go complete the jianbao I failed to finish (or start)

"Constructing the scaffolds of the most beautiful murder
You'll find no other in the records of time.
Let me create for you the perfect death.
While you bleed tears I'll cast them aside.
Time and tide waits for no man, they say.
Then embark on your last journey now
With me as the director of your last performance ever."

Random

2009-05-04T22:21:00.005+08:00

Random thingy I koped off Dawn's Fb. But instead of doing it on Facebook I'm gonna do it here haha.

Does your Facebook password have to do with a boy?
haha, no.

What's one thing a guy can do to make you like them?
True to his head and heart.

Are you a girly girl?
Ohgawd no, refer to previous post on my mum.

Big or small purses?
Neither.

Do you enjoy drama?

Haha that's a good one. It's a DUH question.

Did you dress up on Halloween?
I wish I had a chance to.

Do you call anybody by their last name?
Um yeah. But just that one.

Can you put on mascara without opening your mouth?
I dont like make up ._.

Have you ever been called a bad influence?
No but I think I am haha

Eyeliner or mascara?
Neither I dont like makeup! D:

American Eagle or Hollister?
Wth are both? 0_0

Heels or Flats?
Flats, definitely. Heels are murder weapons disguised as footwear.

Straight or curly hair?
No curls! Straight :D

Hoops or dangling earrings?
Studs :]

Have you ever had your heart broken?
You cant break something that aint whole.

Do you prefer light or dark haired guys?
Usually dark.

Do you have a best friend?
Yesh.

Do you like your life?
No it's been a total straw lately.

Ever walked into the guy's bathroom?
Yeah, but it was legal then.

Have you ever jumped in the pool with your clothes on?
What for?

Ever slapped a guy in the face?
No, I wish I had though.

Have you ever cried yourself to sleep?
Who hasnst?

Have you ever not been able to get someone off of your mind?

Yeah.

Do you ever wish you were famous?
Nah, I'm fine being me.

*IN A BOY:
Good cook or take you out a lot?
I'm fine with both. But might prefer good cook now that I think about it since I'm a total klutz in the kitchen.

Funny or Serious?
Omg definitely funny. Serious is so...

Cute or Hot?
I welcome both with open arms.

Long or short hair?
Short.

Your best friend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do?
That aint gonna happen so yeah.

RANDOMS:
When is the last time you were in a photo booth taking pictures with friend?
Ohman it's been so damn long I cant rmb! D:

Who's the last person you had a sleepover with?
I think it's Xin Yi & my beltrix girls.

Have you ever seen someone you knew and purposely avoided seeing them?
Yeah.

Who was the last guy you talked to?
Hmm... San Peng Ck and Siang.

Do you think best friends can be replaced?
Nobody can ever replace anyone.

Does the last person you held hands with mean a lot?
Yup.

Do you think you have made a difference in anyone's life?
I think everyone who knows me feels incredibly smart and sane after knowing me.

Which of your friends is the easiest to talk to?
Wenxin & Zhen. Maybe Vicki haha I cant really list it depends on the situation.

What friend do you tell the most?
Fishie.

Are you going anywhere next summer?
Nah.

Are you waiting for anyone's call right now?
No 0_0

Are you shy?
It depends on the other fellow.

Are you talkative?
Most of the time.

Does the person you like know you like them?
I'm crush-less at the moment :]

What does the last text in your inbox say?
my tutor asking me to remember my homework LOL

Who was the last person you cried in front of?
I forgot how to cry.

Are you good at hiding your feelings?
You honestly think I'm that cheerful a girl?

How is life going for you right now?
Life's a straw.

Do you smile a lot?
Over retardism.

One thing you're looking forward to?
Eds Night 2009!

How do you feel about change?
Change is good.

Have you ever cried from being so mad?
Yeah it just comes.

Last time you got a text message and smiled?
Couple of days ago.

Have you ever made anyone laugh when they were crying?
Yeah haha I'm naturally funny.

What are you doing today?
Living.

Have you ever regretted letting someone go?
You cant let go something you have never had.

Do you prefer to be around people, or by yourself?
Depends.

If you were abandoned in the wilderness, would you survive?
I dont think so haha.

THIS OR THAT:
Rap Or Rock Music Scene?
Rock over Rap

Movies Or A Dance?
Both are ok. Though if it's dancing I'll just watch.

Horror Or Romantic Movie To Watch With Him?
Romantic. I just cant stand horror.

WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF:
He Sang Your Favourite Song To You, But He Sucked And Messed It Up?
laugh and correct him slowly, then sing along with him :D

He Played Dumb Stupid Jokes On You All The Time?
Revenge is sweet :D

He Started Speaking To You In A Different Language?
I speak Venus back to him.

A LITTLE MORE ABOUT HIM:
Do You Like Your Guys To Stand Straight Or Slouch?
I dont care so long as he's at ease.

Shy Guys Or Super Outgoing?
I'm fine with both to be honest haha but I think outgoing would be better for me bah.

Do You Like Your Guys To Play Instruments?

MAJOR plus if it's guitar/drums/piano. I'm a total sucker for musically inclined guys ._.

Eds <3

2009-05-04T21:22:00.004+08:00

I cant remember much tht had happened to me today except Eds haha had my usual crazy load of fun. Talked, exchanged gossips and I made everyone say hi and bye to Fishie! :D [except Ck because he's a total grouch like the green fuzzy monster that lives in a trashcan in Sesame Street. His best friends are worms ._.] I mean seriously, even San Peng said bye to Fishie! ._. & he's usually not-very-nice ~~according to weilee and the world~~

I dedicated a whole paragraph to Fishie, wow Raey.

Still whtever it's gonna be Eds Night soon and we're reaching there :D the thing with us is there with enough faith, trust and pixie dust it usually falls into place well on the day itself.

Convo Of The Day:

Jeviene: Omigosh I finished memorising my lines!
Raey: What, Touched With Fire?! 0_0

She meant CCC but yeah :]

I cant show you a photo of Fishie but I'll try to get one here soon haha Fishie is camera-shy :D Anyways take a look at what I doodled during LA today. My skin is a canvas haha.

Fine, I Survived

2009-05-01T16:45:00.003+08:00

I've wasted my time today haha shall go do notes on Hilter and carbohydrates ._. After watching Britian's Got Talent off Youtube I'm not sure if I should be glad for my lack of talent now haha.

Tag Replies!

YZ: I'm not lah you nun! In comparision to you especially ;]

Xin Yi: ok fine you'll be the first to get it... after I get it of course haha :D

Rachel: ehlo my lovely jnr. You were waiting for a bus, not my car so yup haha

YC & Eli: I cant wait for it too haha it's gonna be blast as usual :]

Tingyu: well it's ok de lah you'll be fine in the end. Heck them just be yourself :]

Weilee: ok then LALALA EDS NIGHT IS COMING~

Tingyu: wth what? 0_0

(dont read it's a waste of your time)

Woke up at 5.15am today it's a literal Labour Day for me every dumb year but whatever made my distance with them so yeah haha completed it real soon. Finished it real fast this year like, within 2hrs instead of the usual 2hrs dragged on to 3 ._. Ohwell it's over so yeah yay for me my the muscles on my legs were on flames for the whole event and now I cant feel my legs. Thanks eh?

Still what happen afterwards was totally worth the whole sickening annoying trip + torture. You two opened my eyes to something I didnt see before.

"If it matters, we would have hated you for being in Dunman High. And you wont even talk to us right?"

I'll Never Know

2009-04-30T18:14:00.003+08:00

Ohwell Speech Day is finally over haha I dont even wanna count the number of trees we killed by just printing scripts and booklets ._. It went well I suppose even though there were a few boo-boos here and there but I guess we survive and made it through haha :D many thanks to Weijie Vivian Simon and Tianli! All of you are pure awesome :D

I had many firsts today. Some of them are quite pathetic but I guess haha at least I'm no longer pathetic coz I've did it already yay!

#1: wearing a DHS blazer [SC navy-blue one somemore leh! :D]
#2: wearing court shoes [they murdered my legs]
#3: wearing a long-sleeved guy's shirt [i was desperate]
#4: wearing stockings [i hate stockings]
#5: being a emcee for a Dunman High event [wow]
#6: roaming about doing nothing by myself
#7: zilian with a mirror [i need a photo for AEP's self portrait. Otherwise they gonna use passport photo and that's a total URGH & ARGH if you get what I mean]
#8: slowing down, looking back, looking forward.
#9 体会着，享受着，在人群中的寂寞。寻找着，思念着，孤单的凄美

At least now I can say that I would die with a shorter list of regrets. Since Angshuang was telling me how we are all gonna die in 2012. There's a whole string of possibilities & it's on wikipedia. The PC lesson asking to write down the things we are grateful for set me thinking on my trip travelling around singapore wasting time. What am I grateful for? Is there things that I really am thankful for? Oh wait, that reminds me. I forget to thank my parents in the letter. I have to thank them for teaching me how to lie, how to deceive, how to create the perfect facade, how to rage a battle within myself and becoming immune from how you cant die because you're needed to live for them to kill.

I'm lucky I've actually things to be thankful for.

Then after Angshuang told me about how we are all just gonna die really soon (like when we're both 18) prompts me to write down a list of regrets I might have.

In no other whatsoever:

#1: I would have never been able to prove my parents wrong. I'll never show them that the arts are equally important in today's society. I'll never show them I can be what I wanna be. I'll never prove that dreams can and will come true.

#2: I'll never know what is like to travel the exotic sights of the world with my trusty camera and snapping down every beautiful miracle of nature. I'll never hear a song I penned on the radio. I'll never be who I want to be.

#3: I'll never know if I can really make it in society.

#4: I'll never be able to dance like Taemin/Yunho (ok kidding here I can live to a 101 practicing dancing everyday and still cant be like them -.-

#5: I'll never know what is like to be in love. Heck, I'll probably never know love.

"Never, what do you know about never?"
-Bang Bang You're Dead.

btw just did this Fb quiz and it's so off I wanna laugh.

"You will fulfill every goal you set out to achieve. Money is there for the taking. Your love life will be the envy of all who come in contact with you. Family and friends are extremely happy and excel because of the advice and comfort you give to them. You will be worshiped, praised, and admired by all, and feel good about yourself and those you have effected around you. Life will be amazing for you"

Allow me to explain line by line why this is by far the most far-fetched result I've ever gotten.

Line #1: LIKE REAL I WANT MY GPA 3 ONLY BUT MY GRADES ARE WORSE THAN THE STOCKS NOW.
Line #2: I'm broke my parents didnt gimme my allowance this week ._.
Line #3: I dont have a love life 0_0 even if I do, I dont see how everyone else arnd me will be envious. I mean, hello kindly take a long hard look at me!
Line #5: Family? What family? Friends haha been drifting away to the old ones and havent grown close enough to the new ones so yeah there you go super off.
Line #6: I'll feel good about myself? LOL! I'll be "worshipped, praised, and admired by all"? HAHAHA WHAT A JOKE zero talent to speak of here.

Finally Line #7 is as ridiculous as it could get. It's anything but that now life's a total cheapo straw.

Eds ftw! :D

2009-04-28T20:28:00.003+08:00

Hahaha ok check out the poster yeah? I still have 5 tickets with me but to those that I've already sold to, bring your blingbling tomorrow yeah?

SAY EHLO TO MARY :D & Idk who's tht may be Ck or Marcus or Ching Ying or Siang.

Ok anyways havent updated in quite awhile even though I've had the chance been busy over Speech Day stuff and life's seriously majorly screwed up at the moment ~~thanks mum~~ and my knees hurt. 5 items tmr!

wth is wrong with me. Life is such a straw.

blogthings~

2009-04-24T22:02:00.001+08:00

Your Animal is the Crane

Deep down, you are a very secretive person. You keep a lot to yourself.

You may seem friendly and outgoing, but it's not the full picture. You prefer your own quiet company.

You are a smart and talented person. You have an amazing set of skills.

You are also quite reflective and thoughtful. You have a unique spirituality that is always growing.

What's Your Celtic Animal?

You Are The High Priestess

You represent mystery - secrets that are yet to be revealed.

You find yourself sitting between two worlds: one dark, one light.

You tend to hold these two worlds in balance, reconciling the two.

Open and welcoming, you invite others to learn your secrets.

Your fortune:

Something hidden or latent in your life is about to come forward.

You need to pay more attention to your dreams, thoughts, intuition, and imagination.

And if that involves tapping into your dark side, it will all balance out in the end.

You have a lot of potential dying to be unleashed, so let those gates open!

What Tarot Card Are You?

This is getting creepy.

END OF KILLER WEEK YAY! :D

2009-04-24T20:10:00.005+08:00

EDS NIGHT 2009

Date: 23rd May 2009

Day: Saturday

Venue: Performing Arts Center of Dunman High School.

Haha I was just talking about it yesterday and they gave out order forms today odd coincidence but yeah if you want tickets tell me yeah? First come first serve basic ok if you're slow/late you'll be on the pending/waiting list :x

So yeah hurray finally finished my killer week if every week 5 were like this one I'm seriously gonna die. Allow me to list out my week for you :D I have a feeling this is gonna be a really long post ._.

TODAY

Started the day off with Maths CT + 2.4 run which I came in 47th :] I'm just glad I pass. At least, I think and hope I passed. Improved by 10 positions! But like Yiling said, that's only 54 people running this year for my class is itty-bitty. Ohwell shant let that ruin my happy mood :D

Afterwards was lessons and History presentation... Followed by a rushed lunch then had to run over to the Performing Arts Center for Speech Day rehearsals. My fellow emcees Simon Tianli WeiJie and Vivian were... Erm, wonderful individuals. ~~Vivian Toh is a nutcase with or without food~~ Wei jie is the "seasoned one" haha so he took over one of my parts so yeah sorry and thankyou Weijie! Simon can sleep under chairs 0_0 Tianli is just sweet lah haha ok I had crazy loads of fun with them today so yeah even though the wait and pronouncing were annoyingly anal but still, :D

It ended really late though wah D: Oh btw I doubt he would ever read this but happy 18th birthday Simon! We were damn nice sing birthday song for him in the middle of an (almost) empty performing arts center :D

But I missed Eds GM and I heard it was freaking ._________. There were emo speeches that would only happen once-in-a-lifetime because this is my only SYF ._. Wah can I get someone to repeat the speeches to me or sth? :x I've such lovely seniors and they are so awesome I cant believe it. Boy, am I lucky. And I also left my bag in school coz I deposited it in the blackbox before speechday rehearsal & when I went back Mr Ken had already locked the room. Ohwell I'll get it tmr then.

YESTERDAY

Everyone kinda emo-ed abit about the silver thing but yeah we were all over it after a while. Talked to Mr Ken and Mr Harris who thought things are screwed big-time haha. Nothing really significant other than the fact that I flunked both Biology & Chemistry big time. Boy do I need a tutor for Chem ._. Hope Mr Han's remedials actually work for me...

WEDNESDAY

Had emcee rehearsing again today Mrs Kumaran wanted us to use the broom as a microphone 0_0 But we let it out in the end it just didnt work haha. Watched Bang Bang You're Dead for lecture which is turning to be very very interesting but they cut it off at a really important junction, meh. They say they'll continue it next week. I sure hope so!

TUESDAY

All I can remember is that I stayed up to close to 2am and woke up at 5am to finish my AEP homework. Was very very dead on Wednesday.

I cant recall what happened on monday so yeah that's about it for now shall answer tags!

Jt: haha yiling is all grown up awwww.

Rach: saw you at the bus stop today haha :D

Tingyu: haha <3

Angshuang: you gotta be kidding me. Yu-zhen's just really good at photoshop lah.

Xin Yi: you still havent tell me yet ._. Oh Theme Of Rain is really nice. But abit draggy for me yeah.

Candice: I <3>

Cherv: I love you loads too. I cant say the same for Calvin Klein.

Phua Chu Kang: heyyo sir but I believe you're attached to Rosie!

Jamie: you again ._. Zhen's good at photoshop lah.

Charmaine: Of course! We rock wah :D

Sabbie: yeah duh, of course! Silver is the color of white gold, which is rarer than gold itself!

全世界都停电

2009-04-23T19:34:00.003+08:00

全世界都停电 - Tank
作词：姚若龙作曲：Tank 编曲：洪敬尧

连你都会残忍隔绝

我的心能要谁了解

眼中烛光摇晃着熄灭

为何把我推向边缘

被砸坏了的一切

卡住了我让我无法往前

囚禁在距离笑声最远的房间

单独隔离寂寞地盘旋

全世界都停了电全世界都封了街

我所有窗子外面被贴上黑夜

我呐喊思念却没人听见

绝望到极点剩的是疲倦

全世界都停了电全世界白雪满天

才发觉在我心间有回忆碎片

一作梦翻身就刺痛流血

我卷着身体缩成一个圈像一个句点

Proud Of Your Love.

2009-04-23T18:26:00.004+08:00

Ah fine wtv I know I'm breaking my hiatus but it's for a very worthy cause. [you can tell I'm trying to make myself feel slightly better about ignoring my zuowen.]

I'm proud to announce that Eds [Drama] had achieved a Silver in SYF 2009.

Why? Are you gonna shove the phrases like "self-denial" and "silver also wanna announce" up my nose? You cant by the way because:

#1: you speak bad english.
#2: I wont let you shove bad english up my nose.
#3: you cant shove something like english anyway, even if it's bad.

But the main reason is definitely because no matter what happens, I'm still proud of my CCA & everyone in it, ranging from mr ken and mr harris to the tech crew people. We had our fun on stage, did our very best and spent every minute on that stage shining.

I know most of us are disappointed/sad/emo ~~(while there's some people who just cant be bothered)~~ but hey, life goes it on, even if it's a straw (it sucks). Now we'll have to put ourselves and work hard for Eds Night. We ARE expecting a full house as usual ya know we cant disappoint the audience ~~(& ourselves and mr ken and the seniors again)~~ So yeah, mope a bit and cry get it all outta your system and when tomorrow come, we would be ready to fight (well, rehearse actually) again.

So yup, I still love all of you! :D

EDS NIGHT 2009

Date: 23rd May 2009

Day: Saturday

Venue: Performing Arts Center of Dunman High School.

Tickets aint out yet but it's there to remind you to keep it free :] (author's note: expecting all 19 of my girlfriends to be there! Except Van & Shuang D:)

(Xin Yi made my day by saying, "Eds Night?! I wanna go see the sexy dancers!")

Ok now I'm thinking of a catchphrase for us but my brainjuice level says dry... Still, came up with a few.

#1: Drama: HA IN YOUR FACE WORHXZS
#2: Drama VS The world: we'll pwn the stage baby.
#3: Drama: Having the last laugh HA! :D

Ok I think all of them sucked nvm I need to return to my zuowen anyway. Will think of something better soon (I hope)

"我承认这不是最好的我

但确定会努力给你更多

往幸福的途中太多分岔路口

可以迷路不准退缩"

TEMPORARY HIATUS

2009-04-20T20:33:00.005+08:00

Heyyo there world in case you missed my title I'm going on a short hiatus because this wk is gonna be a killer. & I hope to cure myself of a little bad habit called procrastination. Meanwhile, keep my tagbox happy and alive though I highly doubt that because nobody really tags anymore blah. Will update at the end of this week I promise!

[I'll obviously update this list throughout the week so yeah. Gives me a sense of hope tht time is actually passing...]

List of Killers [you can see i'm in a desperate need of organisation]

-get History group to get the ppt done by Thursday

~~-Chem test tmr urgh!~~ Ok cleared tht one already but seriously gonna fail.

-Maths test on Friday double urgh!

-2.4 actual run on Friday urgh to the power of N!

~~-write zuowen due latest by Thursday~~ ok I'm doing it alr!

~~-Biggest killer of all: AEP.~~ Ah made it through by sleeping at 1.30 and waking up at 5am to continue the work...

Meanwhile I've to squeeze that in with all my Eds + SD rehearsals ohgawd. Goodluck Raey.

Turning Back The Minute Hand

2009-04-19T20:42:00.005+08:00

Yup I've one zuowen to go woah. Any idea how addictive the internet can be? Tsk Raey needs to workkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk. Ok going now world wish me luck in life I need it badly. Results out on Thurs ohgawd wth is taking them so long!?

_______________________________________________________________

Crimson stains whatever's left.

Regrets litter the snowy ground.

Icicles leaning against your cheek.

What made you smile a minute ago

Just betrayed your heart.

(are you ok? 'Cause I understand.)

Facades slipping off

Not unlike the tears you've shed.

Calculating, counting

The scars, the wounds, the torn lovenotes?

Defying the laws of maths & physics.

(Time is ticking...)

I never wanted it to be this way

Ultra Short Post

2009-04-17T22:43:00.002+08:00

I need to sleep.

Just came back from family gathering.

Wasnt really fun, wasnt really boring either.

I learnt about how powerful what's not said can be.

Need to go off real soon. Mum's coming

HSK tmr. Long day ahead tmr.

You wont be able to feel the disappointment I feel towards y'all. Never.

Random Candid

2009-04-15T21:06:00.004+08:00

I love this shot. Thnks Zhen!

[edited]

"So you make your face a mask,
A mask that hides your face,
A face that hides the pain,
A pain that eats your heart,
A heart no one knows."

-Bang Bang You're Dead

Crazy Day :D + Favourite PE lesson ever

2009-04-15T19:31:00.006+08:00

Today had been a total whirlwind of ups and downs but to sum it all up: absolutely craaazy.

After nodding off in Biology today [carbohydrates are THAT interesting...] then came PE! The girls were kinda dreading it 'cause Bio sorta left us pretty lifeless [the irony] plus it was gonna be the mock 2.4 run oh the joy.

Dragged our feet down to the basketball courts and made the seemingly long journey to the starting point of the 2.4 run. [we worked backwards: started from the end of the 2.4km] and lalala took our time to stroll and chitchat. [Mr Siva had a bike ._. Seeing it makes me feel kinda guilty to my one 'cause I've barely touched it this week. Ok promise to bike during the wkends! Rather bike 4.8 than run 2.4 -.-]

As we were all looking forward none of us really noticed the storm clouds loomingly. The front seemed so incredibly bright and sunny ya see. Once we spun around to see the gloomy weather it was totally unexpected. The cold wind licked our faces and we were all standing there watching. Wow.

Suddenly felt so awake, so refreshed. Therefore we ran back to school & had 15 minutes extra for recess! :D we are such gl people haha.

After PE had PC watched the Last Lecture lalala. Maths & Chem were the usual. Did my maths sums [very proud of myself I must add] & pissed Mr Han off. Plus sth happened to Yiling in the middle of it all cant write it here she'll murder me with her bare hands [you noe she's capable.]

LA lecture was more interesting than usual. Bang Bang You're Dead + Mr Ken lecturing on it = major fun :D Yup that's about it ended my day off listening to the lion dancers' never changing beat/rhythm :x

Well ending my post off with this

Eds DANCERS FTW+ GWH! :D

No matter what happens tmr, we all still love you and we're still one big happy family. So smile people! It's the process that counts, yeah? :]

[edit]
Shall answer tags too haha

Sarah Lai: haha i've linked you already my crazy bimbotic jnr!

Xin Yi: anytime love you had to tolerate my rants too wah :]

Wen Ning: you lazy pig :D

YZ: LOVE YA LOADS TOO <3 Ok mst talk talk soon yeah? Haha I'll go Rhythm 23 this year de lah haha but you all must come Eds Night too ok? See all the retards in action and the hawt dancers haha :]

Weilee: no problem love it was the least I could do. Plus you like red wah so yeah tada! Dont let Maureen bully you ah! :D

Eli: =hugs back= yup, is yr knee better yet? :x sorry i kept injuring you that day D:

Tingyu: haha you fail at twit lah speak proper english! :D

Maureen: naaaaaaaaaah least I could do <3

Sorely Missed (What Happened?)

2009-04-14T19:44:00.006+08:00

I clicked HERE & all the memories just came gushing back.

I love that room so very much. Even though we complained about how dirty it was and how we killed our knees crawling around on it and crashed into the mirrors on our seniors' instructions [ahem Sanpeng ahem] We moaned and groaned and grumbled about that stupid room.

Then we left, now thinking about the amount of memories we had created in that one room.

It was the place we started our Eds adventure. One we would never forget [and with luck, never end.]

It was the place we did stupid games and started stupid dares.

It was where we met our seniors and they gave us pep talks that may-have-helped-may-not-helped and ghost stories to freak the crap outta us.

The place we introduced ourselves to a bunch of crazy looney monkeys and finding how much we had in common. [we realised we had released each other potentials to be crazy looney monkeys.]

We had the bimbos, the model pupil, the misfits, the dont-fit-ins, the nerd, the geek, the bully.

We created jokes exclusively ours and a language only we understood.

Fridays was the blissful end we all looked forward to round off the hellish week. We would have never missed it for anything in the world. It was our time. "Skip Eds? No way!" We went for the sake of becoming a 'we'. For the crazy loads of fun and laughter. For that common passion we shared.

That time. That place. Those same people.

Now, I ask. What happened?

我们到底怎么了？

我还爱着你，无法忘记，有一股思念的威力。

YOU SUCK

2009-04-13T21:37:00.001+08:00

"Hi we are sorry for the delay in returning your phone due to pending parts that have not arrived. Estimated delay: 1-2wks"

I'm so gonna die.

How could you have done that to me? You said all it needed was some software update thingy! DO YOU KNOW HOW AGONISING THAT IS FOR ME?

I want my baby back.

incredibly empty

2009-04-12T19:00:00.003+08:00

I feel incredibly empty. Because I just sent my baby to servicing. Saying goodbye was darn difficult I'm telling ya. Call me an addict but hey, my baby is not just a phone it's also a very important tool for me to achieve my dream.

Now that I'm back, I'll just add and emphasise that I'm dreaming.

Cant help feeling incredibly empty without it .__.

Ok I'm getting obsessed with Epik High's One again. Another revival of obsession...

One-Epik High (Lyrics Translations)

Watch it at: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8A_uzeSvKvg

I want to see your tears pour out, pour out without reason
No one knows inside your heart
The glass fragments raging a storm
The wounds become a sickness
All doors become a wall
I’ve become an enemy in the mirror, doesn’t it hurt?

[I'll] keep anyone from knowing about you
[I'll] leave the breath to tighten out
I’ll force you to choose the end, (aren’t I bad?)
I’ll take away all reason in this world for you to to stand
Without the choice of the road back,
[I guess] you’ll walk to the end
Your breath would probably end before my heart

Wounds (When you cry)
Scars (Though you try)
Tears (say goodbye)
Flowing (the time is tickin′)
You are wandering through death, (I’ll save you…)

You are the one.

When you’re walking in shadows
(When I’m panicking in the shadows, my breath does the same)
You are my savior
I’ll reach my hand out to you
(When all the doors in the world close for me, I’ll support you with my hand)
You are the one.
You are my savior.
Time is tickin′...

Your hand set the world on fire
You closed everyone’s eyes
The suffering that was reflected in your eyes like stars become your city
Are your still dreaming, sleeping? Are you measuring all the tears you’ve shed?
Hope is a paper boat that sinks, isn’t it sad?

Maybe you wake up drenched in sweat at night
Is consciousness crawling on the floor?
Are you thinking it’s the end, are you ok?
’cause I understand

I’m a scar on your broken body
I’ll erase the tears you’ve hidden away in your shattered marriage
I’ll grab your hand
With my hand and trust you

You are wandering through death, (I’ll save you…)
(When you cry. though you try. say goodbye. the time is tickin′)
You are the one.
When you’re walking in shadows
(When I’m panicking in the shadows, my breath does the same)
You are my savior
I’ll reach my hand out to you
(When all the doors in the world close, I’ll support you with my hand)
You are the one. you are my savior.
You are the one. you are my savior.

Do you have wounds?
Do you have scars?
Are you wandering through shadows?
Do you have wounds,
Do you have scars,
Are you wandering through shadows?
(Faith, Destiny, Love.)

you′re still beautiful to me.

You are the one.
When you’re walking in shadows
(When I’m panicking in the shadows, my breath does the same)
you are my savior
I’ll reach my hand out to you
(When all the doors in the world close for me, I’ll support you with my hand)

Time is tickin′. T-Time is tickin′, tickin′.
Time is tickin′, T-Time is tickin′ away

My savior.

(credits: http://flyingcrispi.wordpress.com/2008/04/17/epik-high-one-feat-ji-sun-romanized-lyrics/)

SENTOSA TRIP WITH BELTRIX GALS :D

2009-04-10T20:16:00.005+08:00

Good Friday was a chance for all of us to take a deeeeeeeeeeep breath before plunging back into the ocean of chaos that awaits us every single dumb day. Anyways, went to Sentosa with my Beltrix lovelies [even though I wasnt feeling well but I'm much better now really. My family doctor has really STRONG meds 0_0 Seriously just conk out after eating them and then you wake up feeling MUCH better :D]

Waited for the Chicken Rice Trio [Sha Yiching & Cherv] for damn long. We left for Sentosa at 9.30 and they reached at 12+. Truth is, they just woke up late and procrastinated. Their reason was they were aiming for lunch period to deliver chicken rice for us. How lovely.

Vball like nuts. Crap like shyt. Talk like there's no tomorrow ah I miss all these good times.

Shall just post one photo for now and post all the rest when the other fellow camwhores are online :]

I <3>

RANDOM PHOTO SPAM + Tag Replies! :D

2009-04-09T19:20:00.008+08:00

Ok didnt go for the Sport's Meet [thank you flu virus] Sorry Wen Ning [& Dunman High] that I wasnt able to go cheer you people on personally D: Not that it made much of a difference to be honest haha. Had the HSK talk yesterday and as usual, went bonkers with Chervelle and Yiling. Cherv is in self denial :D [dont deny it tsk!]

TAG REPLIES! :]

Rach: LOL you missed the facepaint? I was one of the last to wash it off coz I was comtemplating whether to keep it on and take public transport with it LOL :D I dont think the school mentioned anything regarding the number of piercings you can have haha shhhhhhh.

Janell: Yesh I'm the founder of the terms "Van Chan syndrome" & "Ck syndrome". Also, if you a sadist, congratulations you are Mr Ken's new best friend :D Thnks for the compliment I love Eds loads too! ;]

Vicki: You & your ego, tsk! :] Ok ehlo there how many piercings do you have eh? If I'm a girly girl... then I dont know what's Jamie/Sarah Lai haha! Bimbos are supposed to be super girly right? :x

Sabbie: ok come take a good long look at my ears then. LOL at the "so odd (not even)" part! :D Thnks, I'm keeping my fingers crossed too! :x

Weilee: Me and my many sources muahahaha. You saw the photo? But it wasnt really relevant D: I'll hunt the information about that gaypok down! =resolves= You cld have only noticed them during camp coz we MET during camp my love LOL!

Dah Man: ahahaha but that's because Wen Ning is big-sized! :D

Angshuang: you hardly tag! Missya you crazy woman! & waaaah me not girly haha. Ok, is that good or bad?

Xin Yi: high, darl! I wish I would get well soon too the meds made me super drowsy -.- I'll survive either way no worries there! :]

Rachel & I did this to her chemistry stencil. We were supposed to use it to draw chemistry atom shell thingamogys but this is obviously more fun :]

LALALA I WORK IN THE PRIME MINISTER'S OFFICE :D [dont demoralise me and tell me the truth is that that's part of my history project]

Ah nvm I'll just blurt it out to myself that: HELLO! Considering my amount of interest in politics that just aint possible haha -.-

Eds! I spammed the mahjong sheet that was put up for well wishes to performing arts with EDS! It was kinda pathetic that when I reached the paper it was already covered in scribbles but none of them belonged to Eds. Well, that's why I equipped myself with handy-dandy markers during recess/lunch/before flag raising!

Yiling's doodle right smack in the middle of the mahjong paper! :]

Oh did I mention that the moment the SCs put up a new sheet of paper on the 2nd day the Beltrix girls ~~vandalised~~ wrote alot of well wishes for Wen Ning and Wen Ning only on it? It was covered with her name in less than 5mins :D

And she tore the sheet down and brought it hope in the end btw :]

2009-04-06T22:09:00.004+08:00

Vacant stares says more than daggers.

What's not-spoken will echo the walls.

Lightning bolts are able to cut across the sky within split seconds;

A heart can never be mended again within the same timeframe.

Let the tears dry with the wind that howls,

Stay strong my love, we'll be through the tides with our hands locked tight.

______________________________________________________

There are some matters that burns itself into your head, your skin

And there's no way of removal (that's why we have scars)

Plastered smiles will find its way to your lips

Not unlike how the truth is just a lie everyone buys.

My love is leaving through the door

Holding another hand I find all too familiar.

_____________________________________________________

Asking for that last bit of trust

Only to have even your tears betray you.

The world sees you through tinted glasses

You dont see the world at all.

Thousands of images race before your very eyes

You shut the windows of your soul, asking for no more

Short Post

2009-04-04T15:39:00.003+08:00

Just read this off Weilee's blog regarding Mr Sng's plan to have some SYF showcase. This also equates to us chorus having to paint our faces white again. Awesome, are they gonna hold it at night? :D

Picture this: a group of black people with white faces invading Dhs at night. Pure bliss.

Before I reply all tags since I'm in a let's-answer-tags-to-extend-this-post mood, I shall address a matter that is seemingly driving Maureen nuts. But now that I've visited Weilee's blog it seems that she already know what's going on LOL. We still love you Maureen happy april fool!

P.S. But weilee's still my lovely Ck ah.

Tag replies!

Tingwei: lol thnks for the compliment it means a lot to me. Sorta LOL :D

Charmaine: Aint I your ONLY boyfriend? =sniffs= yeah now that it's over, I kinda want it back ]: Keep catching myself singing The Murderer's Song here and then haha

Maureen: I believe you already have the explaination you demanded haha :D How bad would it be if we didnt tell btw? :x I'm guessing not as bad coz ya know we know that you love all of us jnrs too much to be mean so yeah :DDDD

Vicki: yes you lagger bt I still love you! <3

Rach: ehlo there! :] Why did you say that I'm not going to die soon D: Am I? :D

[edited]

HEY THERE WORLD I'M BORED.

You Are Dare

You are outrageous, adventurous, and wild. You live to have fun.

You are all about taking risks and pushing limits. You love the rush of doing something forbidden.

Like most daring people, you are highly intelligent and creative. That's why you get bored so easily.

You need a lot of stimulation and novelty in your life. You aren't satisfied with the mundane.

Are You Truth or Dare?

You Should Be an Actor

You have a flair for the dramatic, and you probably already do a lot of acting in your day to day life, just to entertain yourself.

No need to steal the spotlight from your friends... You'll get plenty of attention once you start acting professionally!

What Sort of Artist Should You Be?

You Are Break Dancing

You are a rebel and a rule breaker.

You are uniquely you, and you expressing your individuality.

And while you're different and a bit weird, you're no slacker.

You're extremely hard working. Having unusual talents is not as easy as it looks!

What Dance Are You?

I like this one but that doesnt make it true. Terribly wrong about me being hardworking & talented LOL.

Your Ego is Very Small

You don't have a high opinion of yourself. You're happy with who you are, but you don't feel special.

You believe you're just like everyone else. You aren't more unique or more deserving.

While it's good to be humble, make sure you don't sell yourself short.

You may not have a superiority complex, but there's nothing wrong with wanting to better yourself.

How Big Is Your Ego?

I think the cat is vry cute haha :D

You Communicate Passionately

You speak from the heart. You can't separate your feelings from what you're saying, even in a professional context.

You tend to speak dramatically, with lots of passion and emotion. It's easy for you to get swept up in what you're saying.

You like to connect with people early on so that you can personalize what you are saying to them.

When you converse, you try to find common ground and harmony. Even if you disagree with someone, you try to emphasize where you agree.

What Kind of Communicator Are You?

Why does this result seem so chim to me?

You Are Surrealism

Dreamy and idealistic, you've created a world that is all your own.

It's very likely that you've either dabbled in drugs or are naturally trippy.

You are always trying to push beyond the boundaries of your culture and society.

You believe that art, love, and freedom can change the world.

What Art Movement Are You?

Me no drug addict.

Your Height Says You're Intuitive

You are a sensitive, emotional, and even shy person.

You are a romantic in the truest sense. You see people as you wish they were.

You tend to be a very perceptive person. You are good at getting to the heart of the matter.

You tend to be quite pensive and reflective. You think everything out carefully.

You are about as tall as the average German woman.

What Does Your Height Say About You?

You Are Not a Snob

In general, you're a very open minded and kind person.

There really isn't a snobby bone in your body.

You're not afraid to be who you are... you're proud of your individuality.

In truth, you think that snobby people aren't good enough for you!

Are You a Snobby Girl?

You Are Avril Lavigne!

A bit hardcore on the outside...

But sweet and sensitive on the inside.

"It's a damn cold night

Trying to figure out this life"

Who's Your Inner Rock Chick?

it's Friday!

2009-04-03T20:06:00.007+08:00

It's Friday! & Friday means Raey wouldnt feel bad about procrastinating! Allow me to post the photos I've been wanting to post [scroll down ok?]

Meanwhile I shall do a proper post about SYF yesterday. I think it was beautiful, even if it was flawed. Nothing's perfect and the flaws are what makes it more beautiful no? I shall go extract what I posted yesterday and form it into a list! :D Before that, let me type out what I remembered from Sanpeng's letter. It's not an exact word-for-word but you'll get it.

"Dear Juniors,

all those times you have to endure Ck's funny pronunciations were all for today! I personally think your version of Touched With Fire is the best version I've ever seen! (I've only seen two.) Anyways, relax and just go out there and have fun. Burn the stage down touched with fire~"

Or something like that. But you get the point.

Things we are very proud of!

#1: Prissy not farting/sneezing/giggling onstage!

#2: No whispering! [though we still trampled like elephants for a teeny bit]

#3: Absolute stage discipline! From zero to an all time high! [and then to nth aftwards]

#4: Little Girl was super loud! :D

#5: Ck ~~was smart enough to identify where the heart is~~ able to pronounce English as... well, English.

#6: Vanessa was all tongue tied about how to pronounce 'souvenirs' before that but she managed it in the end anyway. [we coined a new term haha for that it's called The Ck syndrome. If you start bursting out laughing for no apparent reason, it's the Vanessa Chan syndrome :D]

All in all, very proud of my lovely team :] I love you all so much, we pulled through love!

Did CCC today but it was kinda a flop... Ohwell nevermind ._.

Btw my mother told me this really interesting incident today... She was shopping for earrings then she thought oh might as well buy for me [since they are cheapo and then I wont bug her anymore] ahem so this was the convo she had with the fellow selling the earrings. [according to her it's a guy in his twenties]

My Mum: eh xiao di what kind of earrings do teenage girls like nowadays?

Fellow: oh buying for your daughter ah?

My Mum: yah.

Fellow: is she the girly type or tomboy type?

My Mum: =thinking I'm obviously not a tomboy= oh girly.

Fellow: ah then she might like =showcases blah number of earrings=

My Mum: eh I dont think she'll like leh... ah nvm thnks I see myself first =wanders off to look at displays=

Then she chose some earrings [I gave her descriptions before bt she dont want coz she say too expensive LOL] then was preparing to pay.

Fellow: eh auntie you only bought one for this design.

My Mum: oh nvm my girl only need one.

Fellow: 0_0 auntie, your daughter have how many piercings?

My Mum: =ponders and count= five.

Fellow: auntie, got 5 piercings not girly liao lah.

LOL EPIC :D A fellow who has nv met me knows me better than my mum.

this happened on April 1st this year where the Senior High Student Council stole all our benches away. [but also conveniently left some behind to colonise by themselves]

Everyone's on the floor ._.

A shot I took of Eds being busy busy busy for SYF. Ok I'm just gonna post this shot since the others I took are highly similar and I didnt take much shots so yeah ._. Would have to get from the jnrs le.

You could tell by this source that I was really bored during history/chem [I cant rmb haha]

& we made it through my love

2009-04-02T21:05:00.003+08:00

And so it went by, just like that. We made it through love, we really did. You were awesome, simply brilliant.

Though you would have thought Time would had been nicer and give us more of itself to allow us to savour it for the one last final time.

But whatever happen, it's behind us! & I seriously we all did awesome. Ck could pronounce "pursuits" & Vanessa could say "souvenirs" properly too yay! My beloved Xiaocong was loud too and nobody had a voice break! Even Priscilla who was damn worried the previous night that she would sneeze/have to clear throat/fart onstage and make everyone laugh... SHE DIDNT. Our stage discipline went from a clear zero to an all-time high :D

I seem to be zihigh-ing like some crazy fool now. Even though Mr Ken insist it takes at least 2wks to find out abt the results, everyone made a private resolution to go home and search the Internet to find it anyway haha.

Ok my history essay is due tmr bt i havent started on anything at all LOL.

[edited]

I'm so obviously procrastinating like shyt LALALA shall reply tags~

Yiling: Coz it's funny lah! :D

Weilee: Thnks my beloved Low Ching Kai :D [quoted from your sms this morn haha!] Thnks for loving me, thnks for everything :] Eds ftw!

YZ: #1: nv call me by that name again. I dont even let tchers do that to me ok dont traumatise me like this D: #2: missya too your letter/note tdy made me .___________.

Tingting: thnks you jiayou too ok! DHSSB!

Maureen: ahahaha inside joke. I personally didnt get it until quite some time afterwards to be honest haha :D

Candice: Get well REALLLLLLLLLL soon <3

Eli: that's difficult. I'll try to be not emo lah.

Rachel: haha thnks! It's oveeeeeeer. And yesh I'm old D:

Xin Yi: I'm alive. And it's worse than dying.

500th Post! :D

2009-04-01T20:32:00.003+08:00

This is my... =prompt symphony= my 500th post! =throws confetti & celebration takes over=

Though the usual problem being that whenever I hit my n-hundred post I end up having an emo post so yeah I shall let this post be a happy one today! :D

School as usual today with Physical Education thrown in so I was pretty lethargic for the whole day that followed. Attempting pulling a prank on Mrs Kumaran but it didnt work coz nobody cooperated with me ._. But I won 10 chocolates from her during PC so yeah haha :D

Chem was 0_0 I think Mr Han is weirded out by me haha was staring really hard at him. I was hoping to bore holes through his skull. But you know that obviously didnt work.

Lecture was ._____________. the vids Mr Harris showed us make me dizzy.

Yup that's about it all I wanted to blog about was actually just the fact that I won 10chocolates from Mrs Kumaran and finished it 3 within the PC period. Gave the remaining ones to Cherv Yiling Rachel & Sarah haha. Wow 10 chocolates in one shot leh! :D

Eds [Drama]'s SYF is tmr! We'll pwn the syf stage my awesome retarded yet still vry imba bunch of morons :]

_________________________________________________

Vacant stares says more than daggers.

What's not-spoken will echo the walls.

Lightning bolts are able to cut across the sky within split seconds;

A heart can never be mended again within the same timeframe.

Let the tears dry with the wind that howls,

Stay strong my love, we'll be through the tides with our hands locked tight.

How much more scary can this world get?

2009-03-30T19:34:00.002+08:00

Idk why but whenever I feel high, it is so very artificial and it fades quicker than the rays of a sunset saying goodnight. It is as though I am using it to mask away the emotions I cant show.

What she said set me thinking. Tired of life just didnt seem the same to me anymore. Rephrasing it to say that I am tired of living? Maybe. The routine of life, it consumes me bit by bit. It's tiring yes, but it comes with its rewards, no?

There is this gianormous part of my life that I absolutely love but after what she said today made me think twice. It is not as though my love for it came to a complete fullstop [I still love it like there's no tomorrow, I can swear on that.] It's just that, it is such a scary place. Suddenly the masks drop and dissolves into the long shadows they have casted. And when the moment the back is turn it is replaced with another facade. How do I know who is who?

I am so tired of playing this stupid game and I dont even want to be in.

Things could be so simple but it is seemingly so humane to complicate matters. Then you come ask me why I find it hard to trust people.

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SYF in 3, 2,1...

The Winter's Tale

2009-03-28T20:39:00.003+08:00

Yesterday was sure hectic arrived home at 12+ last night only to wake up at 7am this morning to go for Eds rehearsal. Let's start from the very top, shall we?

Skipped all the lessons and let's zoom to Eds :D I have 18 girlfriends now [Vanessa Chan Ziying & Candice :DDDDDD] Eds was Touched With Fire as usual lalala then Caris did the facepaint demostration for Mr Ken coz she was the last one to come in through the door ahahaha Eds and its sadistic forfeits. Or more like, Mr Ken and his sadistic forfeits.

Went to watch The Bridge Project: The Winter's Tale written by Shakespeare [who's dead] at the Esplanade and the whole hullabaloo began. Charmaine my #1 gf I'm so proud of you and your love for me :D Kinda fell asleep at the end but I know the ending [thanks to mr ken!] Thanks to Ck too lah who knew he could be so nice? [and very mean the next moment. And very beng the moment after the next ahaha]

Hoping very hard for Vanessa to be able to make it to her last Eds Night D:

Eds <3

Dbsk quiz

2009-03-28T20:36:00.002+08:00

Holy crap wouldnt I be dating my brother Yunho?! 0_0 And Yoochun's my lover ohgawd would Shuang kill me? :x WHAT I'M GONNA MARRY JAEJOONG but he's prettier than me! D:

Wth.

2009-03-26T22:57:00.003+08:00

Yeah I finally finish my history essay which ends my week of chionging homework whew thank gawd it's friday tmr shall end off my horrid week with lovely Eds :]

Living here is suffocating. I need a life. What? So my homework is not homework hers is? If I die you'll cry crocodile tears because there's no longer someone for you to manipulate anymore.

Ok I shall do a quiz to cheer myself! Got this from Shuang/Jamie's blog :D

Rules: It's harder than it looks! Copy to your own post, erase my answers, enter yours, and tag twenty people.Use the first letter of your name to answer each of the following questions. They have to be real...nothing made up! If the person before you had the same first initial, you must use different answers. You cannot use any word twice and you can't use your name for the boy/girl name question.

1. What is your name : Raey
2. A four Letter Word : my name itself is a four letter word!
3. A boy's Name : Rason/Raymond/Ronald Mcdonald
4. A girl's Name : Rachel! :D
5. An occupation : Robber? Rapist? D: idk!
6. A colour : RED ahahaha
7. Something you'll wear : Rags? :x
9. A food : Rambo's curry [ok i invented that dish haha]
10. Something found in the bathroom: Ronald Mcdonald. He needs to pee too ya know.
11. A place : Raey's school.
12. A reason for being late : Ran in the Rain? :x
13. Something you'd shout : RAWR!
14. A movie title : Ronald Mcdonald needs to Pee [to be film by Raey]
15. Something you drink : Rainbow milkshake?
16. A musical group : Ronald Mcdonald Duck :D
17. An animal : Rabbit :D
18. A street name : Ray Street [I googled! It's in London...]
19. A type of car : Red Apple Cherry
20. The title of a song : Rainy Day by Xiah Junsu [is it the correct name? :x]

TAG REPLIES

2009-03-26T19:34:00.003+08:00

AUTHOR'S NOTE: QUIT PROCRASTINATING RAEY GO BACK TO THE 1932 THAI REVOLUTION!

Ok tag replies haha :D

Rachel: thanks for loving me I love all of you lovely people too <3

Eli: heyyo there my girlfriend thanks for loving me :D

Isabel: I miss Beltrix loads too ]:

Lawyer: ehlo! :]

Jamie: I didnt I stood up! D: but cute rhyme nevertheless LOL I <3 you loads too jiayou jiayou jiayou for SYF!

Tingyu: My lovely Tingting I missya so much. In case you're wondering why I drew you as a loudhailer, it's because I failed at drawing the trumpet thus simplified it to a loudhailer :D Though, you're anything but loud :x Ok I suck haha.

Vicki: it's another Rachel haha but if my junior Rachel dont mind being my gf I dont mind either :D Oh thnks for saying I'm tall & the block made me taller I realised haha I wonder why Mr Ken placed me there anyway... The stamping thing I dont think it'll work lah. Maybe we can all wear black shoes or something...

Extra Add-On [Retarded Convo]:

Raey: Charmaine I have 14 girlfriends :D
Charmaine: WHAT?! 0_0
Raey: Would you be my 15th?
Charmaine: ok.

Complete change of emotion and tone in voice ohgawd my 15th girlfriend is so cute haha :D

O.M.G ._.

2009-03-25T22:20:00.004+08:00

I kope this off Natasha's blog and it's making me hyperventilate ._.

DRAMA:

The judging criteria are as follows:

50% - Performance

Acting skills / Voice / Diction / Projection / Teamwork

15% - Staging

Set / Costume / Lighting / Sound / Design

15% - Script

Interpretation of script, storyline / Effective presentation of conflict & resolution / Use of Language

20% - Overall

Audience awareness / Appropriateness of style / Pace of play

OMG JIAYOU DRAMA OK I LOVE YOU ALL VERY MUCH SO YEAH D:

To My 13 girlfriends.. [edit: got 15 now :D]

2009-03-25T19:27:00.003+08:00

I was doodling away my lesson time today and I drew my 13 girlfriends haha see how much I miss ya lovely people! I have 15 girlfriends now btw so yeah will post the 15 girlfriends one tmr or something :x

Yiling is my boyfriend and ya know something? I'm looking for a boyfriend to provide company for my current one LOL :D

Find your name if you can! :]

Epic Phails + Photos!

2009-03-25T19:09:00.009+08:00

Ok while I wait for the photos from Eds Tech Run upload itself, I shall share with you people who actually read my blog a few incidents that are complete epic phails :D

Incident #1: Yiling and Cherv found the list of things we had to accomplish for Finding Nemo for Eds Camp and they were simply fascinated by the stuff we needed to do. They were also very interested to know who's CK in the end.

Yiling: why this guy like so kelian de!
Raey: he's not kelian!
Cherv: what touch my body! It's like Yiling's tutt ma barreh [yiling's new obsession off youtube...]
Yiling: who set the questions de?
Raey: Eds Comm.
Cherv: Is it they dont like this senior of yours that's why they purposely sabo him?
Raey: But he's the vice-president!
Cherv+Yiling: =complete shock= WHAT?! [with yiling's reaching a few octaves]
Yiling: then why did he do this to himself?!
Raey: Maybe he wasnt there when they planned it...
Cherv: Ok that makes sense.

Incident #2: Raey and Yiling in the school's bookshop. Dont worry Raey made it out alive

Raey: eh Popular dont have the color paper I want...
Yiling: Go to the real Popular!
Raey: Yiling, this is not a bogus Popular! It's just... small.
Yiling: Yeah! You know this Popular dont have my correction tape refill! & it's really popular!
Raey+Yiling: =burst out laughing for no apparent reason=

We used the word 'popular' 5 times in such a short conversation.

Incident #3: do you know how to translate 童子鸡 into English the Yiling way? The answer is: Virgin chicken! :D

Candid shot!

Not-so-candid shot. Check out Sarah Lai :D

Charmaine so cute! :D

Boo, guess who?

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Eds SYF cast on da bus!

Ooh look my shoes glow!

And their shoes dont when they are next to mine! :D

Eds Tech Run

2009-03-23T20:57:00.013+08:00

So yeah school reopened today boy did that suck. I cant even remember what I did during the holidays other than the kickass awesome Eds camp I had ._. Which seriously sucks. Lalala procrastinating again~

Anyways, skipped assembly today for Eds tech run at ACJC [no Angshuang we didnt get to see any hawt guys D:] Eds people are like live amusement we are never bored so long as we're together. They are able to play daiti on the bus ride to ACJC, play Truth Or Dare to spend our time at the canteen. Dares like

#1 proposing to an Eds snr [for the jnr Jingyu, i think. He proposed to Wenxin when he should have proposed to Natasha lol]
#2 go back to the jnr that proposed to Wenxin and demand an explaination on why he did so [Natasha and Jamie were fighting to do this one LOL]
#3 go to one of the Eds males and say "awww so cute" [Natasha did that to CK]
#4 tell one of the Eds males that he looks really hot and sexy today :D

So yeah that was about it the bottle didnt spin to me at all :D Then tech runs were kinda exhausting for we had to move the props onstage within 5mins and stamp on the floor with our bare feet. It hurts, especially when the sound effects that comes out suck really badly D: But still, all in all, it was not bad lah. Especially since Eleanor said so :D [but she could be ya know, nice :x Ohwell she meant it sincerely lah I'm thinking too much]

EDS WILL FIGHT TO THE END

EDS WOULD CHIONG CHIONG CHIONG

EDS ROCK, EDS OWN, EDS PWN YOUR ASS

9 MORE DAYS.

You're starting to freak me out with the coincidences. You are reminding of the future that has past, with that smirk of yours that is able to freeze me solid in my tracks with all the memories rushing back in. You're making me hope but with luck I'll learn my lessons.

I know I'll fall if I hope.

This is the most impossible thing ever.

It cant be.

It just cant be.

Dead, Die, Dying

2009-03-21T20:52:00.000+08:00

I'm close to my 500th post wow this is my 490th post 0_0

The homework is suffocating me ohgawd how do all you people survive DHS? The worst part is that, you cant just drop dead. It had to toy you around, see you suffer, before it grins sadistically and let you breathe... so that the intake of oxygen is able to keep you up for round 2. That's life. Life sucks, but it goes on. And that's the part that suck most of all.

There was a rainbow outside not long ago. There have been so many rainbows this year. Seeing them, you want to believe that somehow, everything would be ok. No matter what storms we have to brave, endure, we'll make it through to the rainbow at the other end. You feel safe.

I closed my eyes to take all of this in and when I opened it my sky was pitch black.

What happened to that bit of hope? That glimmer of faith? All that I was holding on a split second ago? Was the rainbow just there to contrast how bleak the present is now? Now, in my world, it seems like everything wholesome and good is but a distant dream. Tears is simply all things negative flowing out of you when it has nowhere to go anymore. Does black exist to show how pure white is or is white here to portray how evil black can be? But whoever said that this is evil and that is good? Who set the standards? 80 is a number, so it 50 but one is an A+ and one is a bare pass. Nobody wants to be anywhere near the latter while they kill stab hurt for that single

alphabet.

So this is the world eh? You have to resort to underhand means to win? If you were to be nice you'll just, as to put it crudely, die. There's no way you can survive in this world. In my world, anyway.

They say I can be anything I want to be. I want to be a kid.

They told me to be realistic. What makes you say what I'm thinking aint real?

4errari Ready Go!

2009-03-20T11:49:00.004+08:00

4errari Ready Go!
Vroom vroom ready here we go!
Fighting aiming for our goal
G-O-L-D gogogo!
F-O-U-R fightfightfight
Fly kite, fly kite all the rest can go fly kite
Coz we'll kick your ass tonight! <3

We bright, you dim

Haha heehee

We rock, you flop

E-D-S! <3

Tag Replies D:

2009-03-19T21:51:00.002+08:00

Omg I dao-ed my tagbox for so long I feel really guilty D: Shall reply all of you here it's easier haha.

From the very baaaaaaaaaaaack:

Wen Ning: no i didnt post your unglams in the end for I'm so awfully nice :D I can use it to blackmail you longer LOL haha

Vicki: ehlo there <3 [awfully late to be on the streets~] I mean, ahem, yeah all the memories new and old yeah?

Rachel: yes you dont look that old oh gawd if you're old... I'M WORSE D: =the horror!=

Tingyu: missya my love rest well slp well jiayou for SYF! :D

Angshuang: we are working very hard le! :] dont jab me I never make you emo! The photos did :'[ I miss so much too D:

Xin Yi: I agree with YZ oh you poor hungry tired fool ._. Get some slp soon ok jiayou for SJAB... even though they are killing you. Poor darling.

Weilee: yes I love that line! "LOW CHINGKAI! =slaps=" we are the best couple ever <3 yup I posted le and it's a pity we had to leave the whacking part out D: 4errari is da best yay! :D

Janell: I still have the video of you dancing haha! Yes I got a vid of his monologue you want ah? :]

YZ: um... so it was a good thing? :x

My boyfriend, I miss you too. Eat more sleep more jiayou for SYF ok? :D

EDS CAMP'09 PART III

2009-03-19T21:00:00.010+08:00

Ok so Day 3 vroom vroom ready go~

Check out my group cheer we took 15mins to write:
4errari ready go
Vroom vroom ready here we go
Fighting, aiming for our goal
G-O-L-D gogogo
F-O-U-R fightfightfight
Fly kite, fly kite all the rest can go fly kite
Coz we'll kick yr ass tonight! :D

Check out the other group cheer we took less than a minute to write during breakfast:
我要睡觉我要睡觉
LALALA LALALA
我要睡觉我要睡觉
4errari, 4errari :D

Siang ate 5pieces of bread for breakfast and one slice had all three spreads: kaya, peanut butter and strawberry jam :x

My teammates and I were so awfully bored during breakfast so we doodled our time away!

Say hi to Weilee's freako/alien :D

Kindly read Weilee's declaration on the behalf of the whole group. Coz I doodled "We love Siang Siang" on my classroom board yesterday for he helped us do alot of things to convince the comm members. Like breakdancing and humping CK and a table...

This photo speaks for itself :D

We were all so very bored. Siang finised most of the bread but to be honest, most of us were too sleep-deprived to eat.

Sarah Lai's dinosaur! =jumps up & down= It's so adorable lah D: the bee is mine though haha.

This is how you write R-A-E-Y in emoticons :D

This is how you write Natalia in emoticons :D

After breakfast was our Amazing Race around DHS of course. My team was leading until the follow-instruction one. We were the last team to find that station and we spent an entire hour looking for it! Was so pissed with myself for I pass by that area everyday! Well, almost everyday.

The first station was easy all we had to do was to piece together a puzzle and unscramble it. Locate Siyin and voila! Next station! We had to hunt around water coolers to find envelopes for clues and we were first... AGAIN :D Take 3 photos of 3 individual CCAs and showed it to Maureen. Then it was the guess-the-prize-of-this-item station.

It all started after that station we simply couldnt locate that particular station. We were told time and again to follow the instructions very, very closely but we found it in the end by not paying attention to the instructions at all -.- We were to pass a message with water in our mouth and then solve a crossword puzzle. Did that and raaaaaaaaaaaan to the Indoor Court where we had to frogjump-starjump while singing Twinkle Twinkle Little Star. That killed my legs totally after all the running around but nevertheless, we came out of the Amazing Race first :D

Lunch was a blast for Eds invented a new sport: Pongpinton. It is a combination of ping pong and badminton. Btw people, I CAN AIM D: The ball hit the table two times in a row! [after a series of failures of course] We were then discussing how we were to push for it to become an Olympic sport and all. Omg you should have seen us epic phails through and through.

Played Pictionary afterwards and oh yay I can draw stick figures to convey Shakespeare. =gives myself deserving pat on da back= After Pictionary the comm did Charades and we had to guess what they were acting. No more Shakespeare for it was San Peng setting the questions. My group was very slpy so yeah we didnt participate much for this one. Prize presentation followed and though my team didnt win anything we were cool with it for after all we did finished the Amazing Race first :D

So yeah all in all, Eds camp was an absolute success thanks to our awesome comm. [Siyin CK Hui En Van Tan Van Chan Shermaine Hwee Chien Wen Ting and Maureen] San Peng was telling us how they stayed up really late on Tuesday night to prepare the video and breakfast for us awwww ._. Thanks to my teammates for tolerating my zihigh-ness and crazy looney self for the whole of camp. Thank you Eds for all the memories :D

I wanted to end this post off with my group photo but ya know what? When I send it to Weilee yesterday I didnt copy, I cut instead so yeah ._.

Taking a Break from Uploading

2009-03-19T20:57:00.003+08:00

Koped this from Angshuang!
1. Beside your lips,where is the fav spot to get kissed.
Forehead bah... or cheek? :x

2. how do u feel when u wake up this morning.
I feel slpy.

3.who was the last person u took photo with?
My group 4errari :DDD

4.Would you consider yourself to be spoilt?
Sorta... depends on how you look at it bah :x

5.Would u ever donate blood?
Maybe :x

6.Have u ever had a best friend that is opposite sex?
Yeah, why not? -.-

7.do you want someone dead?
Yes, me.

8.what does your last text msgs says?
I cant remember HAHA :D

9.what are u thinking right now?
The weather is so freaking humid D:

10.Do u wish someone to be with you now?

Yeah haha :x

11.what is the time you go to bed last night?
11+ pm after watching Perfect Cut II

12.whr did u buy the tshirt u are wearing now?
Idk, my mum got it on my behalf haha.

13. Is someone on your mind right now?
Yeah HAHA more than one person is on my mind now.

14.Who is the last person that text you?
CANNOT REMEMBER HAHA :D

EDS CAMP'09 PART II

2009-03-18T21:12:00.009+08:00

I just realised I failed to mention the theme of this year's camp is Eds: Grand Prix [Prissy pronounced it as Gore Pui -.-]

Vroom vroom Day 2! + slpover & movie screening!

Ok so started Day 2 with SYF rehearsal of course we aint slacker yo. Then moved on to camp activity... =check camp booklet coz my memory is epic phail haha= Um bunking in wasnt much we pretty much dragged lunch and thus moved on to Finding Nemo :D

Finding Nemo is the same game we played last year for camp. We are given a list of items to find & also things that we have to attempt to convince the current comm to do. The latter has more points of course :D Some of it includes...

-convince Hui En to pole-dance
-convince CK to do a pirouette/do a body wave
-convince CK to say "I'm hawt, I'm sexy, touch my body" & then touch his own body [worth a 100 golden points!]
-convince CK to sing the school song an octave higher [worth negative 50 points!]
-convince Maureen to impersonate teachers/do wushu/do starjumps/duckwalk and quack
-convince Hwee Chien to dance like Michael Jackson
-convince Siyin to write "I Love Marcus" with her ass
-convince Vanessa Chan to sing a Cantanese song
-convince Vanessa Tan to let you send an sms to a certain Justin using her fone

Yeah that's as far as my memory can go. Performance prep and bathing followed yay I'm a speed bather :D The girls colonised the boys toilet without telling them :x so yeah the guys got to bathe very late [except Chingying]. Sorry guys! Performance prep wasnt that bad we did quite a good job.

So yeah Day 1 was pretty much team-building indoor games coupled with hopeless performance prac haha. Our group managed to come up with something passable in the end anyway. Siang was aspiring to be the top Eds racer and receives his first racecar from his dad Low Ching Kai :D But his dad is henpecked therefore he loses his car to his mum Maureen :D His super rich friend sponsors him another car and Hamilton becomes his nemisis but he pwns him in the end due to his retarded pit crew getting swopped over with Hamilton's awesome pit crew haha. Sarah Lai is a superb taxi driver LOL.

After dinner we were supposed to have charades/taboo but we dragged dinner because we dragged bathing because we dragged performance prep so yeah haha. Still, the performance part was great everyone was awesome.

Group 1 did impersonated the comm and wanted people to guess and Chingying is beyond comical LOL. Group 2 was Jamie's group [I HAVE A VID OF THEM :D] Jamie and Jeviene were deeply in love, Bollywood style. Group 3 did a dance I think I cant rmb. Group 4 was my group's total pwnage skit haha. Vicki's group (group 5) [I HAVE A VID OF THEM :D] did a skit too and Group 6 (Marcus's group) [I HAVE A VID OF THEM :D] did a skit on a dance contest. Theirs stood out because all the other groups stuck to the theme of Formula 1, Grand Prix but they simply did a dance contest. Marcus's solo versus the girls' dancing. There was no results regarding this dance contest by the way :]

The year 5 seniors came back and joined us :D

This is PART of my current Eds comm. Didnt get to take a photo of all of them ]:

Yup another photo of the comm and San Peng. Sorry people I dont have much photos for Tuesday night because I took mostly videos that would put myself in mortal peril if I posted them.

We were supposed to watch the horror film "Dead Silence" but we didnt in the end for Ms Koh was worried that we might end up getting very disturbed. So we watched "The Others" staring Nicole Kidman in the end. People were already screaming watching "The Others" so I cant imagine what would happen if the comm really screen "Dead Silence". I just read about it off Wiki and it's already creeping me out big time D:

Uh whatever finished watching "The Others" & went to our assigned classrooms to sleep. But we didnt coz lightout was at 1am [it also means you can switch the lights back on at 1.01am :D] We had a gossip session haha and dug out each others' dirt. But I slept at around 1 close to 2am only to wake up at 4.30am exactly coz I was too cold. Crept into my slping bag after exchanging two lines with Sarah Lai [but she cant remember a thing the next morning D:] Then wakey wakey it was Day 3!

EDS CAMP '09 PART I

2009-03-18T19:53:00.019+08:00

Yup I've just came back from Eds Camp '09 people and it was really awesome! :D [I mean, it's Eds you cant expect anything less right?] Sure we were quite sian after sleeping on the senior high classroom floor [which turned out to be Zona's classroom HAHA] and the night's rain kinda froze me into a human popsicle because I'm a stubborn freak who refuses to sleep in her sleeping bag. [I slept ON it, not IN it. But I crept into it in the end it was too freaking cold D:]

By the way since there's really no way I can post the videos here without dying either by the people involved or by Blogger. Still here's a list in case some people out there are interested...

Video #1 Jamie and gang's bimbo walk [gang includes CK & Siang :D]
Video #2: Siang and Jamie's forfeit: Bimbo walk around the blackbox
Video #3: A video of Jamie and Jeviene falling in love, Bollywood style :D
Video #4: Marcus Mook's monologue.
Video #5: Janell's group performance.
Video #6: Vicki's group performance.

I shall post a proper post about Eds Camp '09 starting from now haha but I'll post it in parts so it's easier for you people & me to digest :D Vroom vroom let's go people~

Day #1! 16th March 2009!
Reached school at 8.30am instead of 9am [oh gawd so early] then went for history consultation only to return to Touched With Fire (TWF) rehearsal. Moved on to Caucasian Chalk Circle (CCC) then ended it around 12 to kickstart camp.

It was a lovely camp booklet cover. Then it landed in my hands :D But you can still tell it's very cute right?

The next page of my camp booklet suffered the same fate in my hands.

Say hi to all my camp group mates :D

Mr Ken is training Jamie and gang how to bimbo-walk :D

INTRODUCING OUR LOVELY MARY~ who is dead, of course.

Prissy is stone-ing coz she cant participate in TWF rehearsal for she injured her leg.

Therefore, kind old Jamie decided to camwhore with her with my 8.1baby

:DDDDDDDDDDDDDD

Yeah that was all during rehearsal moving on to the actual camp! There was no sleepover for the first day so plus it rained so we were pretty much confined to the perimetres of the black box that's white. Split ourselves into groups, mine being the awesome 4errari :D There was the usual icebreakers and all to let us get to know our groups better... And what better to start it off with than Whacko? :D

This is a part of the circle.

This is ANOTHER part of the circle!

These were the words my team formed after a portion of them dug the macaroni out from a plate of flour. Aint they prettaye? Looks kinda like yellow alphabet magnets on a blackboard eh? :x

Ah that's it for now I'm tired would post more tmr look out for Part II people :D

CAMP CAMP TMR TMR :D :D

2009-03-15T15:39:00.004+08:00

I'm going crazy haha incredibly high over the fact that eds camp is just tmr! Hmm actually now that I think about it I dont understand why am I so high ._. Well the absolutely DUH explanation would be: Coz it's EDS :D

Hope camp would be a blast like last year, ooh let me go check through my archives to see what we did last year... =runs back to check= omg I suck all I talked about was how bad a certain tv crew was, thus screwing up our camp. The other thing I mentioned was Ben and San Peng's gay kiss. Oh gawd I suck! I'm so annoying, even to myself. How do you people stand me? All you lovely lovely people... Anyways, I swear I'll do a better and more mature post about camp this year, promise + pinky-swear! :]

Homework is staring at me like some mass murderer about to strike but I cant be bothered my entire head is filled with ideas about camp haha. We've finished TWF and migrated to Caucasian Chalk Circle [mr ken is in the recycling mood, quoting Wenxin :D who cannot make it to eds camp D: but nvm enjoy yr church camp love!]

Ah have to go le I also promise alot of pictures with my 8.1 baby :D Ok who am I kidding nobody reads my blog anyway it's here for self-amusement ._.

那是我们都回不去的从前

2009-03-13T21:17:00.006+08:00

少年光良、曹格

你又想起某个夏天
热闹海岸线
记忆中的那个少年
骄傲的宣言
伸出双手就能拥抱全世界
相信所有的梦想一定会实现
一切看起来都不会太遥远
转眼之间过了几年
轻浮的语言都已经慢慢沉淀
即使难免会变得更加洗练

我们不曾妥协

那是我们都回不去的从前
幸好还可以坚持当时的信念
世界尝试改变
当初的那个少年

那是我们都回不去的从前
当你站在那个夏天的海岸线
我们还是心里面
那个偏执的少年

别说十年以后，今天以后的我，还会是我吗？

But how can continue to be someone that you have never been?

我对着天空呐喊，我到底是谁？我凭什么站在这里?

Have you ever had a nightmare so bad, you wanted to run on forever, you attempted to hide in the blackhole that offered no shelter, you drove yourself to a desperate escape to the ends of nowhere? I do, except when I'm asleep.

梦想掌握在我手里，但同样的，它也能像流沙一样从我手上流失。你会发现自己一直追逐那遥远，一丝丝的遗憾缠绕着你。当你追求一个永远的不可能时，你会经过一系列的风景，狂野血腥的风就向在你耳旁咬着。这风景里头包含了你爱的人，关心你的人。这里有你在乎的一切。

And you know something, once you reach your destination & look back to all that you have just ran by, you realise that what you have wanted all along had always been by your side. And it had dissolved into your elongated shadow as you turned around, turned back. The closer you got to the light, the darker your shadow became, engulfing everything that ever matter. They were right, it's lonely at the top.

今天我放弃我一直以来在追逐的一切。

Eds ftw <3

2009-03-12T11:59:00.018+08:00

I found this booklet when I was hunting for my stencil to draw Chemistry bonding shells thingamagis. How familiar does it look to you EDS members? :D

TOUCHED WITH FIRE RAWR!

Jiayou to everybody in this list! And jiayou to Siang+Jeviene+Prissy too their names aint here because we were...

THAT TIME, THAT PLACE! Ok I'm in it too lah but yeah haha...

Gay Siang reading Seventeen [aka chick magazine!] :D

Ok this aint from Celebrate Drama but it's one of our Playden rehearsals for Fast&Fresh. I love that Blackbox for some strange unknown reason. It's awesome. And cold. Life As It Is Cast ftw! Eh Chingying looks so young in this photo :x

Omg I didnt even know I had this shot of him, considering it was Shuang that took the entire folder of photos during the rehearsals. This photo is completly pwnage lah!

One moment they were all concerned about poor Sotong's future...

The next moment, they cant be bothered.

I've got a question: Shuang, how come I got about 5-6 shots of the aircon and the ceiling? This is the nicest shot of the aircon see but when they dont switch it on we could all die for the backstage is itty-bitty.

Jamie, dont emo! I cant say that for Van though LOL.

Jamie is still being emo/tired. The background of this photo is so wrong it's comical :D

I'll name the string of photos above "A Series Of Unfortunate Events: Stepsister Meets Prince Charming"

I FOUND IT! JAMIE'S AWESOME COMB! [omg there was this typo err at first and the sentence read 'JAMIE'S AWESOME BOMB' :x which is really wrong of course]

Ending it off with this photo. Eds is da <3

Pictorial Post

2009-03-11T20:01:00.007+08:00

Today is gonna be a very pictorial post as I'm in an uploading mood. Plus, I've wanted to get them onto the blog for some time le but havent got around to doing it so yeah.

[edited]

omg i left this one out! Super imba photo from maths!

I zoomed to the extreme to take this photo of this crane-like bird. Or bird-like crane Idk. Took it on the bus haha so it's blurred but you can really see the bird-like crane/crane-like bird!

Snapped this one in the car.

My latest read :D But to be honest most of the parts are quite boring to me but I'm so determined to finish it. I dont get myself, really.

The bookmark I'm using is a gift from Angshuang last year LOL. Say hi to my uncle Voldie!

This was taken in negative. Paint tubes reminds me of how I would sneak them into Chinese Painting and end up getting some really weird shade of green instead HAHA.

Today was a bore and it just dragged on. But it's close to an end + tmr's a school holiday so yeah yay DHS!

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MISS Y'ALL

WHOA I'M BACK

BYE WORLD I LOVE YOU.

IT CRASH WK

I think this is hilarious

愛我的人和我愛的人

LITUP SINGAPORE

Photos from Litup

Eds Litup Opening :D

THINKING.

:x

Self Control + Self Esteem

eds handover

Because I'm Stupid

BOYS OVER FLOWERS + OUR DM :D

Best Chem Lesson Ever

Long Week

Beautifully Written

He tore her heart in ways no one will know.

SIAN!

BACK TO SCHOOL :D or D:

DRAMA :]

Rawr H1N1

EDS MEETING + MUGDATE :D

PHOTOS :D

Awman I Have A Feeling Nobody Reads My Blog D:

MUGdate.

DATES :D

BATTLE OF THE SEXES

IDMI FILIMING :D

RHYTHM XXIII

One-Liner

Ninety-Nine <\3

OUTING WITH NING :D

Open House + Danzage! :D

The Bright Side

A Whole New World

.____________.

EDS NIGHT '09 PART II

EDS NIGHT 2009 PART I

Claustrophobic

Eds Countdown

EHLO PEOPLE

When your best aint enough

Rocking On & On

EHLO THERE WORLD

PICTURE SPAM

Life can also be a seesaw with yiling on the other end

Random

Eds <3

Fine, I Survived

I'll Never Know

Eds ftw! :D

blogthings~

END OF KILLER WEEK YAY! :D

全世界都停电

Proud Of Your Love.

TEMPORARY HIATUS

Turning Back The Minute Hand

Ultra Short Post

Random Candid

Crazy Day :D + Favourite PE lesson ever

Sorely Missed (What Happened?)

YOU SUCK

incredibly empty

SENTOSA TRIP WITH BELTRIX GALS :D

RANDOM PHOTO SPAM + Tag Replies! :D

Short Post

it's Friday!

& we made it through my love

500th Post! :D

我连心碎也怕惊动你和他